confused so I was so really depressed earlier because well my boyfriend does not really show any emotion torward me. and i went to my friend Felicia's for the week..i was terrified to leave chris because last time i left somewhere for a week i lost corey..
sad but i came because i love felicia more than anything.
well i have been worried a lot about chris getting his job being a cop and me going back to school in a month. i was terrified that he and i will not be as close adn plus there is girl cops..i trust him... he does not seem like the cheating type. i beleive him. smile
i have been distraught about what if he does not like me what if we grow apart and a lot of other s**t....corey has ******** broke me..
so i talked to my brother matt he just moved out and he calls me on his cell a lot.. ever since he moved out we talk like best-friends. he has never even been in a real relationship and he gave me some really really good advice and he put me to ease about some stuff. i feel a little more confident about our relationship...
i keep thinking now that if he leaves me and he does not care about me which i have been really really worried over oh well i guess he was not that good for me in the first place then. and if he cheats on me i will give him a hook kick to the balls. lol
i hope him and i work out well i really care about him....i know he cares about me and he can not show his emotion that well....and he tries for me so hard and repeatedly reminds me i am beautiful and sophisticated all the corny s**t chicks love to hear. i can not take compliments very well but he tries at least. wink i might be alright with him. i hope he feels the same about me...matthew asked me what do i want out of him.
i honestly don't know what i want out of him. i just want him.
 Orchids of Apocalypse · Wed Jul 25, 2007 @ 04:02am · 1 Comments |
