Entry Yesterday:
Well, to start off I am a bit depressed. Pretty much everything that I have looked forward to near the end of the school year and after school ends we're not doing.. We are unable to go to my cousin's wedding. I'm unable to go to the race in Darlington.. My step father might be losing his job because the bakery might shut down.. Its between the one he works at and the one in Florida.. so he might be out of a job. The only thing we're still doing as far as I know is looking at cars and prices to compare to buy a car for my mother and I to share. Everything just seems so screwed up. We were doing good until we got sick.. Then all the medical bills came in and everything just started going downhill from there. Everything is just.. awful.. Everything is out of balance.. We were all set and starting to get things done and straight and I mean.. being able to go up to Mass as a family is something we always wanted to do and just when we go to plan it for an important event everything just crumbles.. It sucks. All this is happening and all I want to do is cry.. I mean.. if my step dad doesn't have his job we will technically be screwed... I can't help.. There is absolutely nothing I can do.. Can't get a part time job to help.. I'm too young.. and there is no way I'm moving.. He doesn't want to transfer and told all of us that no matter what we are not going to do that.. The thing is, if there is no other choice that would be the best option.. There is just no way I could go through with that.. I have a stable life here and I want to keep it. I'm glad my friend had a good birthday.. I wish I could be happier at the moment but I can't help it. I worry.. and I mean.. our damn neighbors, the kirbys, were out with their horse on my cousin Amie's property today and of course mom and nanny went out and talked to David (the eldest son who was riding the horse at the time) that Amie didn't want anyone on their property, etc. and all he had to say to was smart a** comments and went down the hill. Then his father comes up with the horse and deliberately goes and rides on the property and nanny tells him the exact same thing she told David and the exact words he said to my grandmother ******** you, you're a d**k." and went back down the hill.. Talk about a weekend/day of events.. Then I'm fried from the sun from mowing the lawn today so I feel heat throbbing off of my arms and legs.. not including my damn back.. Everything is just awful... I hope it all turns out okay.
Entry Today:
lol.. Really.. In the past *looks at clock* hour or so I am now doing something that I didn't plan to do. lol. I'm going to the prom. All I have to do is make an appointment for my hair/makeup (might just have a friend do my makeup) and I'll be all set to go.. Well, other then getting some jewelry and maybe a pocketbook to go with it.. I dunno.. I really don't care for pocketbooks anyways so why should I get one now?? lol.. Anyways, life is good life is good.. lol.. Nah, when I got home from school my day wasn't that great. Neighbors started a thing again and I don't even want to go into the details.. Though I will say they have one of the sweetest little girls I have ever met and I pray she don't get the attitude the father sends off on all the others.. Looked over Biology and I believe I pretty much know it.. I'll look over it all again later on anyways so I should be alright. Could go to Bush race, but I'm not going. I'm lucky enough to be going to the prom. lol.. Really.. Just biding time to find out everything.. Today was bus driver appreciation week/day w/e it is. Either way mom got a nice bus pad and something else (at the moment can't remember what it is). Poor mom though had a headache when she got home today so she stayed quiet until later on. lol.. Thats when the headache went away. Cooked dinner, talked on phone.. Didn't have any homework to do other then studying since I did it all in school.. Well, there is a figure that I need to copy out of my biology book, I just haven't felt like doing it.. I can draw it during lunch if I don't get to it so it'll be alright.. Well, other then this information I really have nothing to put in here.. You know, my last entry was really full of my thoughts.. Reading it just a few minutes ago was like, "Wow, didn't put anything I didn't mean there did I?" Anyways, this is it for now.. later.
 SkylightRose152004 · Tue Apr 12, 2005 @ 02:47am · 0 Comments |
