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I entered one finally. a few hours later, i post on the forum the rule that you will not be refunded your money, after the host offered to refund my opponent's money. He responded they were his rules and could change them as he pleased. btw you lose 10-0.

This was a little disturbing, because I saw no votes at all, and the contest only lasted about 4 hours...usually it takes a little longer to collect any votes on a topic with only 20 pages of bumps.

I asked if he only counted 2 votes, his and hers, and then they both started ganging up on me, saying how much I was a sore loser, and that the guy never cheated. Since he was the host, I was wondering why he was saying he wasn't cheating, and they made it like I was yelling or something, and he banned me from the topic, and from his pms.

It's not that I was a sore loser...I think it was that he was expecting me to be a sore loser, so he gave my text an angry tone while he read it. I asked the other contestant to send my last pm to him, but...not much chance of that.

Why am I typing this when I know no one reads my journals anymore? I write it for myself. One more cut, one more drop of blood I can remember if I ever find myself in a suicidal situation and need more convincing.