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I finally found another one!!!!!!!

Well I lost my job at the driiling company i was working at....Now i got to go and find another one before my house payment comes in ******** this s**t sucks!....On top of that I got in a fight at the mall .... To say the least he was down for the count..Why the hell has my life been so shitty lately.....Is this all a dream? Have i lost it and am falling into the void/

Girl and a guy were madly in love with eachother, they were only highschoolers, but treated their relationship like a marriage,one day the girl found out she had to move one million miles away, so they spent the night before she left together (not having sex) talking and cuddling with one another, sharing memories, and good times, then the boy said, " dont worry, we wont be apart long, i WILL come and visit you", then the girl looked at him and said "how??", because she knew his family did not have the money to buy a plane ticket and he didnt have a car, but he insisted "dont worry i'll come and see you", and she believed him ...


that next day she left, they said their goodbyes and she was on her way, when she finally came to her house she called him, but he wasnt home, so she just assumed he was at work or something, so the next day she called, he never answered, she was a bit confused, but she still assumed, and kept going about her day, days went by, and he never answered the phone or the emails she sent out, she started to get worried, REALLY worried, till one day she freaked out completely and decided to end everything, until she heard the doorbell, she opened the door and there he was, standing there,perfectly fine,without thinking of how he got there she jumped in his arms and screamed "I LOVE YOU", then later she asked him, "wait, i live one million miles away from your house, how'd you get here" he looked up at her, smiled and said "i walked" ...

well it is lunch time and ******** I am starving..I only got about 20 min left too so yeah lol. Just still something missing.....I just really miss the idea of holding a girl in my arms.......and just sitting there looking at each other......Jessie was like that and I miss her so much......I think about it all the time and I can not stop...not even while I am at work.....
mike V.

I know that I have lost her but now that she is gone what can I do. I try to go after other girls but the only ones I can get are the ones I don't like(aka slutty preppy and rich)I hate having a girl who is too easy to get too.I want a girl who has an attitude and is not afraid to show it.one who will listen when i am down and mainly one who understands me. So far I have not found either and when I do they are taken by some jock who treats her like crap.It is just so frustrating!!! I have this feeling like I want to be with someone right now. I want to hold her in my arms.I want to treat her to the movies and we don't even watch because we are having toomuch fun. I want a girl who would sneak out to be with me.I want a girl who enjoys walks in park and likes to read and study.I want a lot of things n a girl and so far I have not found anyone yet... sad

how do you tell if you are losing your grip on reality?

ok how can u stop caring about someone when you are told to but you dont want to?Tell me!!!!I want to forhet so bad but when i am sitting there at night it just comes back all of it.Every little detail-her smile-her hair-her beautiful eyes-all of the troubles that made us fall apart which was mostly my fault.