I feel like I am.. I mean, for the love of things that are holy, my life will never be the same again! Now I'm scared of talking about things about my side of life due to a fight I got into with my friend.. She brought up how I'm selfish and said basically that the only reason for my best friends is so I can get things off my chest and I only want to talk about myself... That's complete BS, I know I have this habit of ranting, but when I'm aware that I'm talking a lot, I ask my friends how they're doing.
Basically, I'm scared to confront anyone about my problems now, and I'm just sitting here in fear that I'll lose the people I admire.
I feel like I'm being controlled in some way, and I feel like I should end my friendship with her because I'm tired how we get into these ridiculous fights, and her true feelings about me came out and it was too much that I don't know if I can bare with that. In general, I don't think I'm a horrible person, I just have my immature moments- but don't we all? She didn't even apologies to me about the whole thing, she just said things like "I'm right, you're wrong, let's just be friends again." I know for a fact that I'm not wrong.. She's just being in denial, and won't take in what I had to say... She heard me, but she didn't even take in what I'm trying to say.
Sigh, I can't think clearly, I need to take a breather and relax..
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