Ok. I'm starting to believe that i'm an unreasonable person. Which i probably am. But i am very easily hurt by people. Unless its something that happens on a regular basis and i choose to dismiss it. So when i drift apart from a friend ship and the person is too much of a p***y to tell me to my face i end up being the victim. I can understand them not wanting to talk to me, cause i can be pretty fierce when i'm mad but really, this is just the type of thing to set me off.
But then again, its partly not even her fault. i don't believe i'm capable of keeping friendships alive. With the parents/familycrap/ and all. So either i trust people completely or not at all. Two extremes. Thats all i'm composed of. Extremes. I'm so horrible. I try to be bitter but i just end up being nice to the person any way. I think i'm broken. I should be returned.
O my God.
How emo.
I'm really terrible.
ugh.
i should just shut up.
wait...
no one will read this any way.
i guess i can organize my head this way.
since i can't really talk to anyone at home.
Actually i'm getting worried about my kepto issue.
I walk into a store and wonder how much i can come out with
Sure they're just creme filled easter eggs/or chapstick but thats bad. i know where all the cameras are. i'm just bad. But no one would really suspect Rahsi the goodie goodie-p***y to do that. or would they.
I think i'm putting my self in a comfort zone of numerous casual friendships. So i don't have to get close to anyone and I'll always have someone to talk to. Just in case i lose my last remaining best friend. Which i'll probably ******** up too. How sick am i. I didn't even realize what i was doing. its like insurance
 Rikiya · Sun Mar 19, 2006 @ 11:41pm · 2 Comments |
