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Was the the last time I wrote in this really a whole year ago? Damn, I sounded emo.

I'm actually quite happy right now, but going insane at the same time. School is driving me nuts. At least I only have one more semester of it, then I'm off to college. =D

I have a DevArt, but I'm too lazy to update it as often as I draw.

www.hotarukudo.deviantart.com

Real original screenname I have there, huh? xd

:XP My ear... you know that feeling you get in your ears when you've gone through an elevation change? I've had that feeling in my right ear since yesterday... and I have no idea why. crying

I don't know why... but I've felt very spacey lately, more than usual I mean. It's gotten to the point where I kinda feel sad.. a lot. I don't know why, nothing horrible is happening, I'm not in fights with anyone... my grades aren't very good right now, in fact, they're downright horrible. I'll be lucky to get into college at this point. ... But I don't think that's the reason. I'm not sure.. anyone actually reading this have insight for me?

At least my friend Nikori is coming over, she's always great fun. ^.^ Tonight I'll probably be cleaning my room... reading the Handmaid's Tale (for AP English) and drawing... I have a few ideas for a picture...

Oh great... now I've started thinking about college again... and the rest of my life, I hate it when I get into these... reflective moods, they usually make me sadder... What should major in when (if) I get to college? More important question... what am I going to do with my life? What do I even want to do? I've been thinking... maybe something to do with computer art... but the problem is with that... I don't think I'm good enough, or will be good enough when the time comes... Nobody would want to hire me. Maybe just something to do with computers...

That reminds me, I also have to go practice my oboe tonight, for the County Honor Band I'll be trying for in Feb. Doubt I'll make it anyway, I'm really not that good the oboe.. I kinda despise it actually. I wish I could just stay on flute for concert season... I like the flute much better, better at it too.. But no, I'm the OBOE player, not allowed to play anything else, at least... according to my band teacher, and god knows... he's GOD. Well... band god. Everyone must play the instrument HE wants you to play, or you can't be in band. I wanted to play basoon...

Well.. if anyone actually reads this... sorry with boring you... I should get going now... Hope y'all are less confused then I am.... Byebye

~H.K.

School has only been going for a week and a half and I'm already tired from work. In my AP U.S. History class we have to read every night and take notes on it, then the next day in class we have a quiz on it. So that means we are quizzed every day. sweatdrop And there is something about my AP English class... I dunno.. the teacher's real nice but... there's something that makes me dread going to that class.. I dunno what... And it turns out.. I'm not that great in Spanish. Yes, I am a junior and I am hardly in Spanish 1, isn't that sad? My Algebra 2 teacher is kinda... scary. Though I like that way she runs her class.. so it's not that bad. Homework is graded on effort, not quality. 3nodding And marching band is.. well, it's marching band, I love it but I hate it. (Love more than hate though.)

I'm glad it's the weekend, and... a 3 day weekend! That means I get to be lazy! Well, at least a little bit... still have that nasty weekend homework.

I get to go to Raging Waters tommorow! First time ever to a water park... not counting the Yucipa Reginol Park that has the man-made lake and 2 water slides.. I'm kinda sad that we never went this year.. I just have to go there more next year to make up for it! xd

~H.K.

I'm actually writing in this thing again. xd Who would've ever expected that to happen.

Anyways.. school started on Wensday! I'm probably one of the only people exicted that school started up again. I can't believe it, I'm a Junior! Who would've ever thought I could've ever gone this far without messin up too badly. It sucks though, I don't want to be in chemistry, but I have to stay in till at least next Thursday, 'cause that's when my appointment to change it is. My chem teacher is so weird though, after we took notes today, he turned the radio onto a country station and then... started brushing his teeth! xp That was kind of disgusting.

Well, I got to go, might post again later. *shockgasp* ... Well... if I remember or feel like it...

~H.K.

Hey look, ain't it amazing? Guess what? I didn't have to go to school today! I woke up and just didn't want to go to school, at all, what-so-ever. So I went to my mom's room and just told her, "I'm not going to school today, I'm going back to bed." She didn't object at all, I was suprised.

I might post later, maybe not, bye.