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What Would You Do If...
1. I cried:
2. I asked you to help:
3. I was becoming suicidal:
4. I killed myself:
5. I died from natural causes:
6. I said I liked you:
7. I kissed you:
8. I started smoking:
9. I stole something:
10. I was hospitalized:
11. I ran away from home:
12. I got in a fight and you were there:

What Do You Think About My...
1. Personality:
2. Eyes:
3. Face:
4. Hair:
5. Clothes:
6. Voice:
7. Humor:
8. Choice of music:
9. Mannerisms:
10. Family:

Would You...
1. Be my friend:
2. Tell me the truth, no matter what:
3. Lie to make me feel better:
4. Tell me you lied if you ever?
5. Spread rumors about me:
6. Keep a secret if I told you one:
7. Loan me some cash:
8. Hold my hand:
9. Take a bullet for me:
10. Keep in touch:
11. Try and solve my problems:
12. Love me:

~Questions~
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
16. Am I loveable?
17. How long have you known me?
18. Describe me in one word:
19. What was your first impression?
20. Do you still think that way about me now?
21. What do you think my weakness is?
22. Do you think I'll get married?
23. What makes me happy?
24. What makes me sad?
25. What reminds you of me?
26. If you could give me anything what would it be?
27. How well do you know me?
28. When's the last time you saw me?
29. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
30. Do you think I could kill someone?
31. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

No feeling compares to liberation.
It feels like a cool, crisp wind brushing against your face in August, and tastes like those summer raindrops that fall onto your tounge. It takes you back to those younger days, where you could jump around in puddles all day without a care, not even worrying about how soggy your brand new adidas were. Nothing could hold you back, not love, not fear, nor even ration.

I feel free.

It's taken me 7 months with Jesse to realize what's been holding me back. And I've realized... There was nothing to hold me back. The shackles around my wrists were merely plastic. I was obsessed with the idea that I could possibly be held back by someone, and so I made it happen. See, that happens with love. When the possibility of loving someone crosses your mind, it never leaves. Because you get obsessed with the idea, and are constantly wondering how you feel about the person. Your mind won't rest until you get a black and white answer. So you overanalyze the situation and assume your feelings for the person all amount to "love," simply for an excuse for your unusual behavior. But what is this "love" based on? Seems to me like this "love" is based on a simple idea, twisted and mutated in the brain. You can convince yourself that you love someone, surely. It's been done. Even I've done it, I'll admit. But the question is, how do you rid yourself of these feelings? In reality.. I really don't know how. But what if you get rid of the source? They say that time heals all wounds. And put time and distance together... It can prevent a relapse of emotion, by seeing the other person, which can ******** everything up. That relapse is like having a scab you've been trying to heal for a month, and then brushing up against the corner of something and having it rip right the hell off your skin. Ow. ******** ow.

Well that's basically my theory. I'm free like a bird. I've got the boy of my dreams (and the lady of 'em too!!) so there's no time to waste on silly boys and toys. So this is my last entry for a while, seeing as nobody really reads them. Just wanted to show you what's been up.
The skinny is:
Cartilage piercing, got a girlfriend (*crosses fingers*), & I think that's about it. My week is filled up with plans so far, so I'm all exciteeedddd. <3 the end.

internet is pretty much down, so i won't be on gaia so much anymore. stupid wireless. it goes in and out of connection and i am like, negative computer illiterate. :]

went to the mall today with my friend robyn, and we got hit on by two 21 year olds. It was freaky. But they both wore bondage pants and had tattoos. it was kinda yummy. on like.. 349873487 different levels. hehehe.

AND AND AND.. REPORT CARD CAME TODAY... I ******** GOT A 95 ON THE EARTH SCIENCE REGENTS! I AM SO HAPPY!!! Maybe I can be a geologist after all. Ya'll better be on the lookout for me. I might be cutting those lovely diamonds when you get married ^^ or doing somethine else that is rock-ish. :] <33333333333333


There is hope for me yet..


<[youmakemeshine]3

[******** idiot.
You don't know how much I long for your ******** kiss.
It kills me to do this-
I think I'm going to die.
Maybe you are worthless..
After all, challenge makes your knees buckle.
You crumble as you stare defeat in the face,
While victory lies within your reach.
Like a china doll, in a beautiful mess
I will shatter into ten thousand peices on the floor.
Never, have I been so weak before.
I'd do anything to hear that voice in my ear.
I'm better off with sweet nothings,
than alone again without you.
Feed me your lies, toxins entwined.
Anything for you, I swear.
One more time for old time's sake.
I'm the whore that needs it one last time.
I can't any more of this!
Here's to the girl who loves a boy.

Sincerely,
me

Tomorrow is my birthday!!! YESSS.
Yes. On father's day. !! :]
Soon, I'm going to be driving (maybe. ish.)
and and and.. wow, that's really scary.
Tell all your old people and children to get off the roads.
Cuz I don't think they have fast enough reflexes,
to be like, "OH s**t. A CAR." **Sploosh**
Oh mannnn!! I'm really excited.
This is my last day of being 15!!
<333
Love, Samantha


[.you.will.always.love.her.]
[i.keep.waiting.for.something.]
[something.like.a.miracle.]
[but.you.will.never.ever.see.]
[that.you.and.I.were.meant.to.be.]

It's so hard to be insensitive.
And so hard to keep you off my mind.
I have to block out thoughts of you so
I don't lose my ******** head.

I'm a fool to ever think he could love me.
I'm a fool for falling so ******** hard.

That insensitive b*****d.
Another year passes by today.
Only the scratches and scars that wear
down my heart will remain of him this time

I thought you were better than that.
And I thought I was better than
falling in love YET AGAIN with you.
Trust me, it won't ******** happen again.

Some say silence is simply the absence of sound.
And yet.. it is far more than that.
It is an "entity" of many forms, almost intangible.
It can be beautiful in a place of commotion.
It can be murderous in a scene of rage.
It can torture the ears of those who long so much
for this silence to be broken.
To the person with so much to say,
the words are even burning up their insides,
break the silence and you'll find what you're looking for.


No longer does Nick haunt my mind<3