okay... this came to me when I thought about how if hiei was with mukuro and everyone else was with the normal pairing.... then who would kurama have? well... I couldn't think of anyone sooo.... yeah late night and me don't get along ^_^
Disclaimer: If I owned it.... there would be Shonen ai galore... so no... I only own... umm.... I think I own a basting brush... yeah me mum bought me that finaly so thats it...
Darn my mind...
hiei and kurama: darn your mind too....
******* Kurama's POV****************
I watched sadly as Hiei went back to the makai... to his beloved Mukuro.
everyone now has someone... heh everyone but me. the missions are over now. Yusuke has a child now with keiko. yukina and kuwabara are expecting twins. and Hiei... well... i don't know any more... I thought he loved me ... I know I loved him.
How can I resist such tender love
Deeper than the deep blue sea
I miss him very much. ever since he left i started to sink into a deep depression... yusuke stoped calling long ago. I don't know about yukina. It's been 4 years since he left. and I can't take it anymore.
Love as constant as the morning tide
Let You love wash over me
Let You love wash over
I herd that Kuwabara graduated from college.I don't know what he does though... he mentioned long ago being a counciler for troubled 'street punks' I guess that's what he did. from Yomi I herd that Hiei has 3 kids. lucky him.
How can I resist such gentle love
Whispered on the evening breeze
Love as soothing as the moonlight
Let Your love shine down on me
Let Your love shine down
I got a visit today. from someone who I never expected to see again. he said that he was checking up on yukina and decided to drop in... riiiight... he seems happy though... so he finaly found love. good for him.. I smile as he tells me about his kids. they seem to be lovely. I tell him as much. he's getting angry now and I don't know why...
"damnit Kurama! what the ******** is wrong with you?" he screams in my face.
" I havn't the foggiest as to what your talking about." I reply evenly.
"hn. whatever I'm not going to play your games." and with that he left.
I feel Your presence all around me
With me everywhere I go
Through the road I take may wander
Love will always lead me home
Love will always lead
I guess I can't get away from him. I feel him every where. I'm starting to think I should just leave here... It's not worth living if I'm not with him... I think that ending my life is the best way... a cowardly act for the coward... heh. I smile as I think that. I am a coward. to afraid to live with rejection.
It's a deep and wondrous thing
This mystery I know
I feel heaven reaching out inside my soul
I worte a letter to everyone explaining myself... I hope they understand. I grow my plants to a blade. I test it and it is sharp enough. I wince as I slash my right wrist. blood starts pouring out. I move to the left one starting to feel weak. my carpet is now forever staind a crimson red. I start to laugh at my predicament. I stained so many lives and now my last stain is to my... carpet...
"hahahahahaha....*gasp*" I colapse to the floor. I look up and see someone standing there. everythings getting blurry...
Heaven's hope was written in the stars
Before the mark of time
Your heart and mine were destined to entwine
you're calling, calling, calling to me
And I'm falling into love
Sweet love, so heavenly
I feel storng arms wrap around me.. a voice calling my name...
"kurama ... hold on fox.. I'll bring you to yukina... come on stay with me kurama..."
it's hiei. I start to giggle at this.... the person who drove me to this is trying to save me now...
"It's to late hiei... ai shiteru always" with that I fall into welcoming darkness...
********** Normal POV **********
Hiei holds on to kurama with tears in his eye's... "damn it kurama... I'm sorry... I'm..."
hiei then gets up and see's the note. As he reads it his eye's widen..
"kurama...."
he flits out of the room and appears at yusuke's house. he leaves the note and disapears.
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what did you think? please Reiveiw! No flames but anything constructive is welcome! ^_^
Kurama:... you killed me...
Hiei: you killed him...
'kina (Fuu and Momo419 ) (my sister): finaly you wrote what you read!
me: oh hush you...
"Because Of You"
Disclaimer : I don't own anything...really... except the plot...I think....maybe
Hiei's POV
I run as fast as I can. far away from this place that reminds me of him. away from the nengenki. when I finaly reach the mekai I keep running. while running I run into Yomi. literaly.
"well hello hiei. did you enjoy your last visit to kurama?" he seems to be hiding something. then it hits me....
"you knew.. didn't you!" I scream at him. he just chuckles.
"who do you think told him about you. and your 'children'."
my children.. wait... ' to hiei: I wish you happiness with your children and you to live a long and happy life. please do what I couldn't ' my children...
"you b*****d! you made him think... that me and mukuro were together! you sick twisted son of a..."
"tsk. tsk. tsk. no need to bring my parantage in to this. yes I told him that. but you provided the emotion behind the act. I only fed him a incomplete truth." with that Yomi disapered.
it's my fault isn't it... but... my children.. they were... OUR children... mukuro had a invention that could help me and him have children... I ... It's my fault.... this trip to see him was to bring him to see them.. a surprise...I....
Yusuke's POV
I wake up to find a letter awaiting me on my desk... funny I don't remeber leaving anything there... or my door unlocked...
I open the letter and notice it's kurama's neat handwriting. as I scan the page my eye's widen. I quickly get some clothes on (I'm not leaving in my boxers) and run as fast as I can to his house. his mother died a few years ago.. that was the last time I saw him, was at her funeral. so now he lives alone.
I reach his house in time to see the police bringing out a black bag.... a body bag....
"what happened?" I ask the nearest officer.
"It ssems that he committed suicide. are you a freind?"
"yes."
"I'm sorry for your loss. Do you know of any family?"
"no. he lived alone."
"then you'll have to come and sort this out. this way.."
I follow the officer thinking about the note he left. anger fills me at who's fault it is....
' Dear yusuke,
I'm sorry I cannot deleiver this in person but I cannot take this lie anymore. I loved the wrong person and was happy for a time... but not anymore. I am a coward and therefore taking a cowards way out. I understand that you may think less of me now but I can't live without him.
I'm sorry.
To hiei: I wish you happiness with your children and you to live a long and happy life. please do what I couldn't.. and take this song as my last gift to you.
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you and the stains upon your lives I have made. please forgive me.
- Kurama '
5 days later
Hiei's POV
today was Kurama's Funeral. I went and hid in the shadows. everyone went up and said some nice things about him. a lot of crying was done. I couldn't cry though. his final song to me is in my head. taunting me. the comfort of death is enticing. I wish to join my love forever.
Forever in death.
Yusuke's POV
I sensed him at the funeral. I followed him so I could confront him with the fact that it's HIS fault Kurama died. he stoped at a hidden spring that him and kurama used to sit and talk.. I know that because me and kurama did it to. Kurama and I used to talk a lot. I walk up to see hiei gazing intently at his sword... more so at the blade.
"you know it's my fault he died. I wasn't smart enough to save him. wasn't fast enough. we were going to be so happy you know?" He looked up at me and I could see such sadness in his eyes. My anger slowly disapeared as I relized he still loved kurama.
"hiei..."
"don't... I know that you blame me too. and your anger is correct. and now I will right my wrong." he raised his sword. and I ran to stop him....
I got there in the nick of time. he looked at me confused.
"why?"
"he wouldn't want this. he wants you to live. to take care of your children and be happy. not to die and leave them alone. not to leave your sister alone."
" please... onisan.. don't."
we turn as yukina walks up. Hiei's eyes widen at her.
"yukina.... you knew?"
"hai... I've known since the dark tournament. I just wanted you to tell me. please don't leave me."
"see Hiei we care about you... don't do this."
".... fine...." with that Hiei disapeared.
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it's been 7 years since then... we see little of him. it seems that kurama decided to come back as Yoko and now they're busy taking care of their kids. aparently they have quite a few. Yukina see's them more then I do... about 4 times a week. hiei seems much happier and no one mentions what happend that week. no one feels the need to talk about it now that Kurama is back. we think about though. well I do anyway.
love is an everlasting thing. weather good or bad... I'll never know.
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well? what do you think? Not what I planned but... va bene (oh well)
Onisan - brother
hai - yes
yes the space ^ above was ment to be there. SUSPENCE!!!!!!! MUWHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! ehem.. anyways... happy ending... didn't mean for THAT to happen.... aheh... also not planned the whole yukina hiei brother sister thing but... oops.... well fit kinda... made him want to stay. i guess.
enough rambling...
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