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So I hook up with this random guy who's a friend of a friend from work. Thinking it was just going to be a one night thing. The next two weeks he is just blowing up my phone with text messages, voicemails and instant messages. His persistance really threw me off. So I end up calling him back and we spend a weekend together and it was really, a lot of fun. My major problem is that he's got me fallin head over heels over his a** and I'm just waiting to find out the dirt on him. I'm such a pessismast when it comes to guys but, if ya knew my story, ya couldn't blame me. He takes care of me when I'm sick, talks with me all the time, dosnt pressure me for sex but DAMN that boy can ********. He can do a lot with just a little if ya catch my drift. He's honest, well so far. I don't trust him at all but that's gotta be earned. I told him I don't want the "girlfriendboyfriend" title because that's what makes me crazy when I find out they been stabbing me in the back. He's cool with it and asked well can we agree not to see other people? <3 <3

This weekend all my lazy a** did was sit on the couch. On SUnday I only got up for pee food and cig breaks. I even passed out that night on the couch. God it was ******** great! I never thought that a weekdend of just bein a slob and doing nothing would be so great.

Had court today for the traffic tickets. So gay! Had to sit around and ******** wait just so I could plead guilty and say I can't pay the ticket off at the moment. Amercia sucks balls. I was too poor to pay of the 1st tickets so my license gets suspended, I still have to go to work to make money to pay em off. Then "Oh, you're too poor to pay that? Well heres another fist to be rammed up your a** since you can't deal with the first one!" FukkkK!

So my car got impounded. I got pulled over on the biggest BS charge I have ever herd. And trust me, being known by all the cops in town, I have herd them all. The ******** porker pulled me over for "visible emissions". What the ******** hell? So now the cars gone, I got 3 tickets which are just going to rape me up the a**. This is the first ticket I have gotten in a long while that wasn't drug related. Why are the cops in my town so against me? I havnt been causing trouble at all. Well, maybe some but its nothing compaired to the s**t I used to pull.

So I went on a date the other night. Semi fun. But the guy is so not my type. I let him know I was just wanting to go out as friends. But, he was super gentleman like, paying for everything, opening doors etc... I feel bad. But I did let him know I was just trying to be friends, nothing more. Didn't help that I couldnt even offer to pay for anything because my wallet was stolen! I left it on a DDR machine (I think) after taking out 400 in cash for rent and bills. God, I am such a dumb a**!

So I was super bored at home the other day, I have called in sick for maybe 3 days in a row now, and decided to try and draw anime. I am the most artisticly challenged person... but, low and behold it didn't look 1/2 bad! I have done a total of 4 now. But, all of them just kinda had to make themselves on the paper, I can't just look at a picture of someone and draw it.
Even tho, it's so tempting to b***h about exs and boys in general, I refuse to do so on here... just for the sole fact that I ******** hate reading little girls journals that are whining about "Oh my Goid, he is such an a** hole! He didn't call me blah" Altho on a side note, if you and your girfriend talk every day and you go one day without caling her, yea it sucks. CRAP! Im doing it! Almost.
Mmm beer and dinner. But, I'm to lazy too cook. Damnit!

Lifelong quest? Yea, that's a joke. Quests are for those with dreams and aspirations, of which, I have none. My main goal in life? To not end up a bum on the corner. Other then that, I really could give a rats a** where I end up. There is no acheving lifelong happiness. So, why try just to fail? I could strive to have my dream job, but everyone starts to hate work at some point. My job now, I LOVED when I first started now I wish death upon all who work and intereact with me at my 8 hours of hell. If there was a job for doing jack-s**t all day, then maybe I would strive to get it, but that would be boring too after awhile. Only reason I go to work (other then the obvsious) is so I can turn around and b***h about it.