Pain.
It is a message.
Merley a message that can simple be ignored by the mind.
Physical Pain only.
Emotional Pain.
How is that regected?
Cut off?
Forgotten?
How do we let that go?
Forgive and Forget.
Yeah right.
We may forgive easily,
but we will never forget the harm done.
It is such a lie when it is said "I've forgotten about it."
Wrong
It is not forgotten, but only put aside, deep into the dark corners of the mind.
It is hidden so as not to disturb.
The door is locked, the key thrown away,
but somehow, someone finds the key.
And unknowingly opens it.
The pain flows like a bloody wound.
The shock is enough to bring you to your knees.
That hole is back.
That torture is alive again.
Now nothing else is on your mind except,
How do i lock up this demon once again?
Will i be able to cage the beast?
Will it eat me from the inside out?
Will it destroy me this time?
Get the best of me?
Weak, exposed, and vulnerable you extract yourself.
You keep everything to yourself.
Risks, those you are not willing to take anymore.
You understand that a pebble will be able to crush you.
So you keep away.
A distance.
Not even within an arms length from society.
Finaly, after what seems forever, it is locked away again.
The memory of the hurt, frustration, pain, and anger.
All tightly concealed into that door.
Yet that key is still dangling.
Still out there for anyone to grab and re open.
Therfore the guard is up still,
still careful.
Still patient.
Still closed in.
Your heart may be beating
but it does not mean you are alive.
Blood may pump through your veins
but it doesnt mean you feel warm.
You are emotionally dead.
Scarred.
For life.
 Hells_Song91 · Thu Jun 16, 2011 @ 08:05am · 0 Comments |
