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Been a long time since I last wrote here. Like over a year, oops.

I decided to trade my mini angel wings for mini nitemare wings, something I never though I'd do in the past. I used to be so into the angelic, white and pink, cutesy-themes and never considered myself a darker type of person. Thing is, now I do. Its been like 9 years since I started out on here, and I'm not the same person I used to be at all. I've grown up alot and been through alot of really bad stuff. One of my friends told me in the past that they liked me because I was good at seeing the positive side of bad situations. I know I've lost that part of me. Now everywhere I look I only see pain and negative outcomes.

I don't think I hate who I have become though. It's not like I want to spend the next 9 years being walked all over and floating around with my head in the clouds. I spent too many years running from reality. A few times I found what felt like an escape, but nothing ever lasted. I'm at the point now where I've stopped running and started facing growing up and that dreams will never be anything more then that.

In less dreary news, I'm still working on alchemy! Haha, been over a year now and I'm only lvl 6. I'm kind of thinking I will stop completely though. I adore the small pose of these angel wings. I'm doubtful I'll be happy sacrificing them for a larger set.