What a funny thing..
I have no clue what to do with myself anymore. Seems as the days pass, I get more and more confused on what to do. I know what I SHOULD do, but I just can't seem to get myself to do it. How do you motivate yourself when you see nothing to do it for. I've done nothing but sleep for the past four days and honestly, I can just go back to sleep right now. I feel like times are getting different and I'm not. I'm stuck on what used to be and I don't know how to change that. I know change comes naturally when its time, but when will it be time. Also, I'm so confused on relationship s**t. I have a boyfriend, hes alright, But there is this other guy...I know its wrong, but I really like this other guy and I can talk to him and we talk for hours on end. My boyfriend and I don't really talk about anything every time he comes over we just go to sleep thats really all we do together, its terrible. THEN there is my ex girlfriend. I love her, I was at one point inlove with her, I know things can never go back to how they used to be and I'm not in love with who she has become. But I'll always care for her, and she is still often on my mind. Ugh. I'm terrible I know, but I don't want to hurt the guy I'm currently with, but I guess being with him while I want to be with someone else and letting him get more attached to me is worse than being honest. Ughhh. any advice for a literally insane girl? also do not judge me on this. everyone has there flaws you know. At least I'm honest about being messed up.
 HiMyNamesAutumn · Wed Mar 10, 2010 @ 10:12pm · 0 Comments |
