Hey everybody! Well, for those who read this anyway. cat_3nodding It's been a while since we last talked. I'm not to great at writing or expressing my feelings but I am going to damn well try! 3nodding So, here I go. It's been over two years since the last time I've typed anything in this wonderful journal of mine. I'm now in the fabulous land of high school. I actually really enjoying it. To be honest my life has been really slow, and a bit stressful. neutral The word I been useing alot lately is nuetral. Now I can't say that to much because I know people who have it alot worse right now than me. But I think I need a change. LIke maybe joining some sports...but me and the two don't go so well together. I need to but I also don't have the gumption. Something needs to change. My drawing life has been pretty slow but all the same I am happy with it. Sorry I got off track, back to the topic of my life-if you don't mind of course- Okay, I read a ton of books. Everytime I read one and finish I always end the last page with a deep sigh. It's partially because the book has ended and it's at the moment that that fantasy world has slipped right through my fingers....again. A promise of a new adventure and an exciting life, gone. Most of the stories I get engrossed in always have the main character saying at some part of the book " I wish my life could go back to normal" but I don't. I mean, how can I say that when nothing has changed? Latley it seems like my life has been one long dream. Like this daze I'm waiting to wake to from, but I don't. All those descriptions of mysterious, sexy guys and the freedom and courage all the characters have, where is it in my life? I've never had anything happen that was worthy enough for a story. I am only asking for one thing to happen that would make me so happy and I'd say "Man, I never want to back" unlike all of my well descripted characters. Do you know what I mean? I love to read stories and just escape from reality. That's what's reading is for. If only it were possible for me to jump into one of my amazing books. Well I am going to keep my mind possitve-even though most of this journal entry isn't-sorry about that. I promise my next entry will be alot more up-beat and giddy. It just hasn't been that way lately. I hate to sound like a charity case, but there is nothing I can change about it for the moment. So keep your spirits high for me, because, I need it. Have an amazing day. And enjoy it with all the happiness you can. Simply because you deserve it. Don't get me wrong, I do too, it just...hasn't gotten to me quite yet. *takes a deep breath* It's tome to turn over a new leaf, for a new beginning. So here's to a new begining!
-TO BE CONTINUED(in a happier version) * again-sorry about that*
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