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crying i haz the worst trouble with relationships..actually its kinda funny..maybe. not sure..actually im NEVER sure..ive recently made a break through XD it was weird... you know just because you talk to someone over the internet or through texting doesnt mean you actually know them..its not as simple as you think itd be when you see them in person. im afraid to acknowledge anything because of the people around me...maybe thats why the same thing is being done to me O.o you know what i tried being honest..well not tried..i WAS honest-completely..but im not sure where it got me.. maybe it made me look like a freak..i even said i was weird GOD. am i not in the same league? i mean come on! i didnt start this so apparently im worth something. anyway my breakthrough..well i mean i didnt lie..and i so easily could have but i dont know where that would have gotten me..it would have probably been discovered anyway. so i just said (or wrote razz ) what i did. and its not like i killed some one JEEZ. im so lost right now -_- but you know what..i try and think that the things that happen now are so small and insignificant compared to what the rest of my life has in store..i really dont know what to do...and theres no one i can talk to..my friends have no experience in this area and ill be DAMNED if i talk to my sister or my mom! NEVAR!!! XD Oh yeah and it was so weird today because i wasnt neverous...like i didnt get that weird feeling in my stomach...buuuut nothing happened so oh well and i will ALSO be damned if this is totally left up to ME so ******** HIM! hahaha im so weird XD