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Januarary 23, 2008
Today...wasnt that fun. It was the same as always. Wakeing up, going to school..staying completely quiet on the ride there. Walking into homeroom after everyone else, getting stared at. The basic day-to-day activitys. Then sleeping in almost every class, getting yelled at because Im chewing gum or my hoods up. I forgot my ipod at home so, I was bummed. No music equals no fun. My school has a dance coming up..for my least favorite holiday, Valentines Day. I hate V-Day. It always leaves me left out. I guess im never really happy though. It hasnt changed. Well..anyways, when I got home..I just kept to myself, I didnt wanna talk to anyone...but I dont know why, I confuse myself sometimes. I got on the computer, no one was on. Checked my myspace...just one message..nothing important..more posts about ******** this..and ******** that, and something about abortions, and how its "murder." After that I messed with my dogs puppies for a little while..then played a little bit of my guitar, im not sure ill ever really get good at it. But im hopeing to. I guess thats all that happened....


"Lights off Anne!" Of course...even though im 16, my parents still treat me like im twelve. "Alright mom!" i shouted back. Its almost like they dont care that i exist, but they still keep me here. I feel like a mistake most of the time...eh, ill just go to sleep..i guess. As i slowly started to doze off into some crazy dream that might have turned out to be a nightmare i hear a big crash. Like a car crash or something. I looked outside my bedroom window..i couldnt see anything, since i was on the first floor in the back of the house. So i ran outside, in my Avenged Sevenfold pajama pants and my Slipknot tank, it was pretty cold but...i didnt care. I was the only one outside, but i saw what had happened. A smaller car..it looked like it was black, i really couldnt tell..got smashed by a truck. It looked like a chevy, but i couldnt really read what the print on the side said. I ran to the little black car, since the guy in the truck walked away like it was nothing and seemed perfectly fine, and i looked inside. There they were...Cory and Rachel in the front seats, Izzy and Jason in the back. Cory looked unconcious and Rachel was crying. Izzy and Jason were to shocked..or high to have any emotion.
"HEY! what the ******** do you kids think your doing?" The big guy from the truck asked.
"Uhm, sir...call 911 and stop being an as*hole." I replyed. It was like he didnt even care Cory, this young kid, could possibly be dead.
"Rachel! Get out of the car!" I pulled the door open and helped her out, then let out Izzy and Jason, who still didnt really show any emotion.
"I dont know what happened, Anne..is he dead? Please dont tell me he is dead!"
Rachel began breaking down, but Izzy went to comfort her..finally Izzy was showing some emotion.
I ran over to the other side..the door was jammed..the truck t-boned this little car. It looked like this guy just pulled his truck back away from it..or the car bounced off of the truck. I got Jason and that big guy to help me pull the door off. I grabbed Cory and shook him around..he started mumbling.
"Anne...is..is that you, o man..did i f*ck up this time..."
I could tell, he had a little to much to drink tonight. I told him to hold on to me and pulled him out of the car. I pulled him over to the grass. He had some cuts and bruises. He didnt look to beat up. Untill i started seeing blood slowly run from his head. The ambulance finally showed up after about 10 minutes...which was pathetic. The big guy was pissing me off though. Complaining about his slightly dented grill on his truck and the tiny scratch on his headlight. They put Cory on a stretcher and put him in the ambulance, rachel rode in the back with him. They took Izzy and Jason to, just because its a procedure thing. I asked to come along and they let me..so i hopped in the back with Jason and Izzy.
"So..where were you guys comeing from?" The doctor..or..whatever he was asked.
Jason went on..."Well, there was this party..and we were coming to pick up Anne, because we couldnt let her miss the rest of it. Cory drank a little, but refused to let me drive, i did have a pretty good high on though!"
He looked at Izzy still drowning in the fumes and laughed.
"Rachel was sober, she refused to drink or smoke anything..there was something different about her tonight..but i just cant figure it out...anyways Cory was speeding and pulled out to fast, the truck t-boned us and slammed into the driver side..i didnt know what to do, or say, i was shocked..oh and high"
He laughed it off, as if he didn't know what was really going on..Cory might be dieing.
When we got to the hospital, Cory was rushed in to fast for me to see him. Rachel was just kind of sitting there. She wasnt crying or anything. Just sitting there.
"Hey..are you okay?"
"No Anne..im not okay. I knew it was going to happen. I saw the truck. I didnt say anything. This is my fault."
"Rachel, no its not. Cory should not have been driving."
"But I was the ONLY sober one and i still wouldnt drive."
I took her in my arms, wiped her tears, and told her.."Cory will be okay, i promise" even though he might be dead already.
A few hours later, the doctor let us see Cory. I walked down this long hallway that smelled weird, like blood and flowers, maybe I only smelt that though. I could of been imagining it. A sign said "Emergency Rooms" and pointed right. I looked over and there were rooms 608, 607, 606 and 605. Cory was in room 608. I walked in, there he was, his head mummified.
"Hey Anne..."
There was an awkward silence.
"I..uhm...is Rachel okay?"
"She, is okay..just upset...and pretty much horrified."
"Oh..uhm...Anne...I love her, and...i bet she is blameing herself...right?"
"Yea, she is taking it hard. Do you want to see her?"
"That would be nice..."
I looked out into the hallway, looked over and Rachel, nodded my head, and she knew what i meant. She followed me into the door, silence swept over her. She just had a fast glance over at Cory and wouldnt look up.
"Rachel. I’m sorry...I.."
Rachel interrupts him.
"NO CORY! It is NOT your fault. It is MY fault..my fault.."
Cory tryed to sit up but it hurt to bad. Rachel ran up to him and just held him.
"Please dont leave me Cory...I dont know what I would do with out you.."She sobbed.
I looked over and Cory, he had tears in his eyes.
"Rachel, Im not leaving you...ever..."
I left them to sit alone...they need some time together. When I look at them, it makes me wish i had something like that..love..like that.
I walked back down the hall that smelt weird. As i was walking i started counting the tiles. They were white and red. I started off "1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6..."
"Are you lookin for something?" a nurse said to me soflty.
"Uhm, nope..just going back to the lobby..."
"Oh, ok..have a good day ma’am."
I started walking again and i started getting a little dizzy and light headed. The walls started moving a little bit..and the next thing i know I was on the ground.