Ok, I'm posting another Journal entry, which is weird because it's been like what, a half a year? Whatever. Anyway I actually am beginning to question why I ever write these, I suppose it's the best way to get anything out of my mind without texting a friend and then having this one deep conversation and trying to explain something that they can't understand because they don't SEE what I SEE. Half of this goes on in my head when I sleep. Anyway, I'm gonna get to the point now.For like a MONTH now some girl has been appearing in my dreams. Some quiet, modest, really nice, kinda crazy girl. She was there for me in the nightmares, I can't really explain it. Most of my dreams end up with me finally dieing after some kind of weird struggle, but then this girl formed in my imagination and she would kinda "show me the way" and for a while I was actually SURVIVING these nightmares. Recently I've been having only normal pointless dreams with all the people I normally hang out with, but she would be there, too. Kind of in the back-ground watching me and I want to walk up to her and ask her what her name is and get to know the figure my brain created for me. I can't imagine her in real life and it really stinks. Why can't life have a "WTF?!" moment and I find this EXACT girl somehwere in real life so I can talk to her. Useing the worst word ever it's like she is my "fantasy" and I don't even know her name. All I know is that she is about my hight, has REALLY pale skin, has short wavey hair that is a light blonde....and that's about it. I haven't really had a chance to really look at her more than that at all. She has barelly spoken to me to. So in the mean time I haven't decided on what to call her, but it's really interesting. For once I think this has been some kind of GOOD news from my brain. Thanks =)
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