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Well...as most of you know...I have joined the Air Force...I also have went through Basic Military Training..and survived XDDD
That s**t was some crazy 7 weeks of my life O_o;;; And it was in the uber fun heat of San Antonio Texas heat....w00t for Black Flag that was up everyday...indicating that it's too hot to be put on our faces by our Training Instructors....aka..no correctional push-ups and sit-ups..or flutter kicks.. ^^;;
Anyways...now I'm in Mississippi...RIGHT next to the gulf...as in...2 minutes from my base is the ocean...so...yeh...its crazy...the beaches are all destroyed..as well as houses that are around her...due to Katrina way back in '05
Last weekend I participated in 'Make A Difference Day" and helped bring down a shed and get a pair of stairs for an old lady who needed stairs ^^;;
Anyways..I'm here for Tech School...to train for my job...yey...6hours of school each day...e_e
But..it's all good...I'll update when gaia won't be ghey X_X
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 darknessfairy29 · Sun Nov 04, 2007 @ 05:29pm · 0 Comments |
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"Music Box"
we move for all mankind, a million miles from everything we've ever known
and we're on their hearts and minds, a million heads are bowed to bring us safely home
hemmed in by emptiness, a million ways that everything could be undone
this hollow in my chest is filled with reasons not to sing but I found one, I know
we are not alone, we feel an unseen love
we are sons and heirs of grace
we are children of a light that never dims
a love that never dies, keep your chin up child
and wipe the tears from your eyes
in sleep we saw ourselves, a million years we had been waiting there it seems
while someone weaves a spell, a million stars look on in witness to our dreams, I know
we are not alone, we feel an unseen love
we are sons and heirs of grace
we are children of a light that never dims
a love that never dies, keep your chin up child
and wipe the tears from your eyes
we feel an unseen love
we are children of light
we are not alone, we feel an unseen love
we are sons and heirs of grace
we are children of a light that never dims
a love that never dies, keep your chin up child
and wipe the tears from your eyes
stand ready and tall, reflect the light
darknessfairy29 · Sun Aug 12, 2007 @ 11:02am · 0 Comments |
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Going nowhere....going nowhere XD! |
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"Mad World"
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
darknessfairy29 · Fri May 18, 2007 @ 06:57am · 1 Comments |
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w00t it's Mother's Day blaugh
Hugh and I planned to get our families together and take 'em out for mother's day to some place nice ^_^ I'm excited hehe
Oh...and we have 2 books for eachother...In one I write..and in another he wrotes...and when I leave for the AF we'll trade XD!!! it's SO cute xd whee
Eh.....Jesse was kinda snobby in the last comment he left...I said something like "Haii ^^" and he's like "...what do you want..." And I think that's kinda...yeh...OK..got the memo...I won't talk to you anymore...I love you too...JERK!
Eh....It's a good mornin..and going to be a good day..NOTHING will stand in my way ^_^ w00t!!
Blah blah...
darknessfairy29 · Sun May 13, 2007 @ 01:25pm · 0 Comments |
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If I could only kill you.. |
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HAHA.....something random...I was talking to Jesse M and Josh G today at the Penn State Trip..And some heated things were brought up..
Who CARES about people's pasts? Like when Shii was 'going out' with Jesse M..EVERYONE was OD that he has a BABY...I told Shii that it doesn't matter..he made a mistake..we ALL do...so anyways..it all got fixed and everyone loves him now..WTF...RETARTS!!! He's the SAME as he was BEFORE!!!
And...yeh..I have a rep for dating people for a month and then breaking up...what..it's MY fault? ******** YOU!! maybe what we felt in the begining died...DUH!! And I hate how people...especially JESSE L ALWAYS has to say something about it to EVERYONE...Get a LIFE...I don't go around telling poeple EVERYTHING about YOU!! Seriousely..that's why we date...to find someone...if it doesn't work..you BREAK UP..or esle you SUFFER...besides..weren't you one of the people who told me to break up w/ someone when Idon't like them anymore?
GAH!!!
Seriously..why am I still FRIENDS with SCUMBAGS...I'm SO MAD at myself...I'm fed up with the CRAP and the DRAMA....
Eh......I guess starting today....I'm not going to talk to them...that's the best thing..besides...if people think it's fun to just STOP ACKNOWLEGING me..then Why not them?
No one should have to see people EVERY DAY that have HURT them SO bad and NEVER appologized..NO ONE!!
Shii....if I could kill anyone...you'd be the first to go...You have brought SO much JOY and HAPPINESS into my life and the you ******** it all up..Do you think it's cool for you to WALK into my LIFE and ******** it UP?!!!! DID YOU!! I HATE seing you EVERYDAY in school..and I just...want to grab you and take that STUPID patheicc attempt of a LIFE that you have AWAY!!! How DARE you....I HATE you...why do I feel the need to yell at you on the net and never to you directly.....I don't want to hurt you that's why..
It's ******** up..I still can't get over it..and yet..I don't want any revenge..no vengence at all...
I'm SO forgiving ><;;;; Why?!!
Bleh....I'm gonna sit w/ Jesse M at lunch from now on....the less I see you..the less hurt I feel...Those stupid empty happy memories won't come to me..and I won't have to feel bad...
That's what I'll do...I'll RUN AWAY from you...Run Away..Run Away...
darknessfairy29 · Sat May 12, 2007 @ 01:15am · 0 Comments |
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Whats love got to do with this? |
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Ya know when you get those butterflies in your stomach, and everytime you think of that person..you can'r help but SMILE, and all you want to do is to be WITH them..to HOLD them, to KISS them, to COMFORT them...
Heck yes..I'm sure everyone has felt that at some point in their lives...I, for instance have felt it several times...none, however were both sided.
Therefore..this goes into a BLOG because it changes mah life..or..makes me feel really.....different...
Anyways..I've knows this boii for about a year..or longer now..we are 'Church Buddies' as I like to call us..Always sitting together in church and always fooling around and being goofy XD And well...we are now going out O_O;;
We have been dating for only a few days now...but we've done SO much..and I even visited him at work at 3AM because I had to see him XD!! I stayed up will 3AM talking to him on a school night because I ad to hear his voice...EEEK!! I heaven't felt like this since..well..Matt O_o;; However..I think this is better..because this person likes me back..and came to my Soccer game today ^_^ and visited me at home..'cause I'm grounded (his fault XD!!!) so he came to visit me since I wasn't allowed to leave the house..
I'm scared.
It's so...WIERD....All my life I ANGST at love and the thought just makes me SICK..so many people crumble and fall from it..why even bother?
Eh...it's only been a few days..2 days actually...and we've been so OBSESSED with eachother...maybe it's just.....the thing that happens everytime someone goes out...but I' going to think otherwise..
Yes..I might be signing my own grave...again ><;; But I would rather feel that feeling of PURE JOY and HAPPINESS and die after it ends again and again..then never feel it..Wouldn't you? Espcially the person you fell HEAD over HEELS for...is as CRAZY for you as you are for him...
Only 2 days..Wekissed on out first date..O_O;;
But it feels so much longer...there is deffinately PASSION And I'm glad....becuase PASSION, in my mind, is the key. BOTH people should feel for eachother and want to be with them everyday..and such...it's crazy..I can't stop thinking about him...
I won't say I love him...I'm afraid of it..and it's only been 2 days...but..I DEFFINATELY FELL for him...
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Lets make new memories. Forget the past..the people that have hurt us..the BACKSTABBERS....
Et Tu Brute?
I think he's helping me get over the pain and the suffocation in my heart from what 2 of my best friends did...I don't think of them anymore..because I'm So HAPPY!!
Please...Please..let this be it. I've always wanted to have a Highschool Sweetheart...well..in this case he's out of college and I'm still in High School..but it counts..because I met him when I am in High School blaugh
and don't you just...HATE that coupls that's ALWAYS together..and they seem like they never spend time apart..and seem to be dating FOREVER?! Oh...I know 2 couples like that...and I wanna be in one XD!!!!
Ah..who knows...but I'll take the risk.
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darknessfairy29 · Wed Apr 25, 2007 @ 03:54am · 1 Comments |
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Hmf..............people seem to be faiding..O_o;; okay...
There really was no reason for this journal..just to ANNOUNCE that a CERTAIN HIM and a HER are growing DISTANT with me...so...um....:shrug:
"There was NEVER any MAGIC to begin with"
and
"Teeth are SEXUAL organs"
Rant Rant Rant... =O
For Maggie: Yiff Yiff
For Chris: VENGENCE is MINE [someone get him to join gaia stressed ]
darknessfairy29 · Wed Feb 21, 2007 @ 03:25am · 0 Comments |
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Fear is only in our MINDS |
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Don't want to let it lay me down this time...
Drown my will to fly...
Here in the darkness I know myself...
Can't break free until I let it go...
LET ME GO
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I can't change who I am...
Not this time,
I wont lie to keep you near me and in this short life,
there's no time to waste on giving up....
MY LOVE WASN'T ENOUGH
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I dream in darkness...
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
BLOW ME AWAY.
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One day I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day, you're gonna DROWN IN MY LOST PAIN.
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Is it a dream?
All the ones I have loved calling out my name.
The sun warms my face.
All the days of my life, I see them PASSING ME BY.
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In my heart I know I can let go.
In the end I will find some peace inside.
NEW WINGS ARE GROWING TONIGHT.
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How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into MY CORE...
darknessfairy29 · Wed Jan 31, 2007 @ 12:43am · 0 Comments |
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