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Today was another hell day. I didn't think I'd be able to survive, but I did. I actually did . Pain is starting to become my friend. It's the one thing I know clearly, with certainty. I sighed to myself. Not everyday was like this. Not everyday ended with me breaking down, telling myself it's okay. Not all the time, but most of the time
Quietly, I walked into my room. My insides were burning with a fire I recognized. It was going to happen again. The fire was going to eat into my insides, not leaving any part of me left. Not leaving joy...hope...happiness... just pain. Just disappointment. Just lonelyness.
I keep hoping it'll all end over, like it always does, but it's useless. It's never going to stop. I thought life wasn't fair before...but now, it seems like before I was enjoying heaven, right before I entered this hell I now have to call life.
Maybe I'll survive tommorow...and the day after. Who knows.
 r-desire · Tue Feb 16, 2010 @ 09:18pm · 0 Comments |
