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Maybe... I've found out who/what "zombie" meant from all of my dreams from summer 09?
I have two theories here. One is complex, the other is that zombie was a representation of an actual person I would meet.
Let me just explain the complex one first. xP
Well, thinking about it, the appearance of zombie in my dreams was very similar to the appearance of my (Ex) friend/crush. After summer break, the next time that I saw him in person, I realized how strikingly similar his appearance was to how I perceived zombie to be. But the personalities, completely different. (Without a doubt, MAJOR difference. Zombie was very sweet and kind while this "friend" of mine might of had the appearance of Zombie, but lacked any sense of "kindness" or "sweetness" towards me.) I think that maybe zombie was representing two sides of him. Zombies are creatures that can be referred to as "living-dead", in a way the "living" side of that guy (that for some reason I feel strange typing the name) only proved true in zombie's appearance, but the "dead" part of him was shown through personality.
Zombie's personality in my dreams was similar to what my crush/friend's personality used to be like before all of these changes.
But whatever. Theory two ties into a really creepy coincidence that occurred this school year o.o
I'm not sure if you might remember, or if I even mentioned it, but there was this guy in one of my classes that I thought was "interesting". Not in an attracted sort of way, and not a repulsed way, but more like a: "Theres something special/different about you and I just don't know what it is, yet." sort of feeling.
Idk how to explain it but sometimes I can feel when certain people are going to end up playing a big role (or even just a quick entrance and exit) in my life. Whether its as a bond like a friendship or just that we had to work in the same assigned group for a project. For some reason, there's some people that I can look at and kind of just feel this sort of strange feeling that they're going to play a role in my life. (and not just be another person that I'll forget about in a few days after our encounter)
I was really intrigued as to why this one guy kept radiating that feeling, so I kind of lurked (as usual. Its like, my specialty xP xD) and tried gathering information about him through friends that already knew him well and by observing him in class. (...I sound like some sort of deranged fangirl stalker -_-; ) anyways, I only figured out as much as: He's shy. xP
So with disappointment, I abandoned my research project on him only a month or so after starting it .__.
I forgot all about him for a while even though I saw him every other day at school. Eventually, about 2 months after (pretty much late November now) I had made friends with a girl who apparently was friends with him in that class. We became pretty close (now that I think about it, we became close during the time that this guy was absent >_>; He sure is absent a lot. -_-) and once he started showing up regularly, I found myself sitting among a group of other students/friends. He was in that group. Surprisingly, he knew my name already and was able to quickly pick up on the fact that my name was Japanese. (though I always thought my name was obvious, a lot of people are never able to tell what country its from .__.; But I think he figured it out quickly because I think he's into anime? =O Or he's just really good at figuring stuff out. Cuz I don't recall mentioning it to anyone in that class the origin of my name. All that they knew was that it was asian.)
Of course, I still felt awkward speaking to someone I didn't know very well and I'm sure he might have felt that way too. (I still feel weird about it, but he greets me on his own which is kind of a sign in my opinion >_> wink
He's a very sweet and... I would like to say VERY cute kid. Personality-wise, I mean. Not appearance, (though he is decent looking o.o xD). By cute I mean... Its hard to explain. He's one of those guys that are very very gentle. Um I kind of questioned his sexuality at first because I thought: "There's no way he could possibly be this adorably sweet and be interested in girls >.>...", but I was wrong. He is indeed, interested in the opposite sex apparently =O o__o'
His appearance, is NOT very similar to zombie's. In a way, he kind of is except for a difference in: hair color and body/facial structure.
Compared to Zombie, the boy has a very light brown hair color, where as Zombie appeared to have jet black hair in all of my dreams. Also, his body/facial structure is very fragile, yet masculine at the same time. Zombie had a very masculine and somewhat muscular build, while the kid has a very fragile seeming figure. I think... he might actually be fragile. He doesn't look like he's sick, but I just mean that he looks really delicately fragile. Like the slightest thing could break him. o______o
(Once again, I read over this and realized that I'm making it sound creepy. He isn't creepy at all, he looks like a normal person except delicate. Err >_< Its hard to explain without me wording everything wrong again and making him sound like if he's anorexic and sickly XP He's not. He's just a little delicate looking. Lets just leave it as that.)
Now, the coincidence kicks in where he has the same exact first name, and exact same initials as my ex crush/friend.
And the last name, though different, has the exact same number of letters in it. Exactly 7. SEVEN o.o (hahah. I feel like someone from one of those shows with a psycho in it where the character overreacts/over analyzes everything XDD)
But yeah. Thats about it o.o
I think I'm starting to like him too which is weirder ._____.
 Deadstar x Assembly · Sat Jan 02, 2010 @ 05:39am · 0 Comments |
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