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Well, alots happened since my last journal. No, this isnt like me livejournal where every update is like 6 months apart with a new gf in between. But its about what happened since last monday. As I knew so far, Michelle had dropped 2 of her classes and was still going to math with Tony still. But on our way back to the school on monday, Michelles mom calls her cause she found out that she had dropped all her classes. When I heard that it too surprised me. I didnt realize she had dropped her last class either. So when we get back to the school, she has to immediately go home. After that, later that day, I get a phone call from her telling me that she cant call anyone, talk to anyone, use her computer, or go anywhere for a very LONG time. This all worried me cause she was crying when it happened and there was nothing I could do. So a week passed and I hadnt heard from her until saturday. She calls me telling me she can get online for about an hour a day. So then I meet her online after saturday and she told me that she had been going through hell that whole week she talked to no one. It wasnt a piece of cake for me either. I had to go every day wondering what had happened to her because I know that she doesnt take pressure well and that I was worried about her. So then she tells me her parents think Im also to blame for part of what happened and Michelle tried to explain to me that that wasnt true, it was other factors that played a role in her dropping her classes. I have no idea what it is was cause she wouldnt tell me. So she decided I should talk to her parents and try to explain things. So I called her mother to set up a meeting with them tonight. So now Im in such a horrible mood. I got tons of butterflies in my stomach making me sick with the thought of meeting them tonight cause they could possibly want me to leave her. And Michelle even said that if her parents wish her to, out of respect for them, she would leave me. I really dont want this to happen cause itll kill me. Having Michelle in my life has been a godsend. Not a day has passed when I dont think about how much she has made me happy. Having to leave her would crush both her and my hearts/spirits, hers alot more than mine because I know how fragile she is and loosing me because of her parents will do more to her then I ever want to think of. So for tonight, I'm trying to come up with a script for how I will approach things. There's alot of stuff to be talked about tonight and the meetings going to be just us 3, no Michelle, so it's even worse. I hope that the next journal on here I write doesnt include me talking about me having to leave Michelle, but about her parents and I coming to a conclusion that is best for all of us. I bid you all a bon voyage.

Ciaossu