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So now what do you expect me to do?

My "best friend" is going around behind my back. She's told me she was bisexual and I just felt like everythign changed then. I have never had a problem with homosexuality, but when it's your "best friend", you feel like you just don't know them.
She's got a habit on us having something in common, and she always changes her mind. The people we do and do not like, the books we read, the things we talk about. She always just turns and swings the other way.
But now. I knew it was "K" that was really into my "best friend", because she told me a lot about it.
I call, and I call, and then I call. It goes straight to there machine. So I finally just go over to their house. I just came back from Softball and I ate a Dorrito or two, then leave to go pitch with my "best friend".
I show up, her sister answers, just out of the shower. She says my "best friend" is upstairs, with "K".
I say "Oh." and head upstairs. The door. It's closed. They're in there. Katlyn hurries before me and opens the door slightly, but quickly, saying [more like WARNING], "CHRISTINA'S HERE."
My "best friend" comes to the door and says "Oh." stretching, and looking blankly at me. I try to peer in the room but I can't see anything.
I look around and tell her I was wondering if we could pitch...
She says we can, and then just shuts the door. In my face. I stand there. Apparently she was "getting ready", but she never mentioned that at the time.

So I walk dowstairs and just sit in their chair, just calming myself down and telling myself I'd be terrible to jump to... conclusions. I'm down their for 45 seconds to a minute.
I go back upstairs, the door isn't all the way closed.
I push the door ever so gently.
I hear pretty loud kissing.
Gross wet kissing.
I just stop and my "best friend" says softly, "I have to go."

I turn right back aruond and head downstairs, saying, "I'm gonna go."
My "best friend" follows me, I forget exactly what she says-
But I just hold up my hand and say, "No. You just... stay here."
She asks why.
I say, "Just because. Just stay."

She follows me into the living room as I grab my bag of Softball mits and balls.
I finally just face her and say, "What were you two doing?"

She just... Well she gets defensive [of course].

I just listen to her crap and say fine, and we go to the park.

We pitch and I kept asking her about it. Asking why she'd be "Kissing her on the cheek as a friend." When she knew that "K" did really like her.

She says it wasn't "K", but some other chick.

She makes me seem like a crappy friend by saying I must not listen.

I knew that was a lie.

After, we sat and talked about our day, but I was hardly paying attention- thinking about what I had seen.

We walk back, and "K" is walking across our paths. Shoving her hair in front of ehr face, acting oblivious.

My "best friend" says, "Hi 'K'."

She smiles and keeps walking, glancing at me. I had known she heard me takl to my "best friend" downstairs, and on the stairs, and outside the door.

I start walking up the hill, I heard "K" call out, "Hey Bree!"

And my "best friend" turns and says, "Yeah?"

"K" says, "Come here!"

So they just start walking towards eachother, I'm walking up the hill, but keep looking back at them, "K" kept looking over at me.
Must. Not. Cry.

And then, I watch them both walk back. To my "best friend's" house.

So now I am crying and listening to my Emo Playlist. I have been badly hurt.

She must know I can hardly trsut her. She's broken plenty of important things to me. Like promises. Telling the guy I like that I liked him. The one who plays the biggest role in my life, I swear. Tells him two years in a row. 'Cause I must've been the idiot who forgave her the first time.

And then there was also, when we saw a scary movie, to make me not freak out as much in theatres [about the movie, at least], she told me about the guy I like and some crap about how I give him a boner and how he just completely likes me.
Okay yeah. Laugh. I'm pathetic.
But I was on this high throughout the movie, kept asking questions. And she kept on answering. It just meant a lot to me. Like I'd never be sad about it. Ever again.

Then later that night, we're on three-way [PHONE] with one of our other friends- I won't sya his name. - And I answer and he's laughing, they had been talking slightly before she obviously convinced him to call me.

Then it comes up. That she was lying. About everything.

He starts laughing his head off.-
And so does she.

I just ask, "What?" and hang up the phone.

Yeah I cried while she kept trying to get a hold of me. Saying how damn sorry she was.

But I guess she didn't get how I felt, the before to the after part.

I was the idiot who managed to avoid her for short while, then forgive her.

That was the only time she has ever tried, to, like, win me back. Out of all our fights. There are coutnless.

But every other time, it's always me doing the dirty work, apologize for something I strongly still feel I didn't do wrong.

There are times when she doesn't even accept my apology. Just blows me off when she started it and she doesn't give a flying F*Beep*.
About me. Or us.

But it was still me who tried. Every time except the time she really broke my heart.

But hey. Whatever.

Like a quote from another episode of Grey's Anatomy that made me bawl my eyes out, 'cause I completely understand.

Why... "Why be stuck with someone who doesn't want to be stuck with you?"