So, well, were to start, I quess I just give you the short version of my life story since i last wrote. (If you don't want to here it, you don't have to read it. xp ) My life has changed alot since 2005... sweatdrop In August of 2005 I met Jon, the love of my life, we've been together almost everday since we first met. He is a wonderful Man. We've been going out for about one and a half years now. Love him so much. Well, anyway, in March of 2006 my brother, 38, had too much of life and killed himself, yes, killed himself. eek gonk I stiill can't belive that he is gone! cry (I'm telling you this because people have to know it's not the way out. And turst me, it's NOT the way out.) Then in April 2006 my father who had been sick for almost ten years went into the hospital and never came out, he died just five weeks after my brother... Even though he had been sick for many years it is so hard to live with out him here... I miss them both SOOO much. That's why I haven't been on Gaia in such a long time. I've been having a really hard time without there here. Then Jon, asked my to marrie him in August of 2006. heart I said yes, of corse. Then he moved over to my house and here we are now. I'm doing a little better, but still not who I was then, I'm not sure I'll ever be that person again.
A short bittersweet entry/update on my outside life. 3nodding
