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wow friday was a weird day....and anguishing!
oi so much to talk about where do i start?
ok so i have had this crush on this guy...lets call him apples....for a while..and hes in my math class...so yeah we get to see each other
so i am talking to my friend allyx on aim and then shes like well do you want me to find out who he likes and im like well ya! and then the next day(thursday-the day i have practice from 530-930 so i cant talk to anyone) she emails me while i am at practice and she says that she will tell me what he said at school so yeah that means a whole night of worrying if its a no....which i thought it would be...or a yes! so i go to school and i find out that its a YES! but then i think that he knows that i know that he knows i like him and that he knows i know he likes me because he wasnt talking to me in class so i emailed allyx friday(yesterday) and she's off roading(without me of course so i totally feel the love there) and i havent gotten a reply from her since...oi this is bad! so monday i am going to act like i know nothing and that i will just ask him about the weekend and what he did and stuff and make him think that i dont know that he knows i like him or that he knows that i know he likes me!
oi this will be totally awkward at first but yeah we will see what happens!
but i really hope that he likes me and that he will think of me more than just a crush...cause i never had a boyfriend before and that i think that if i were to have one i would want him to be my first....the only bad thing is that i dont really have any time for one and that i am not allowed to either have one or i could have one and not do anything with him or go anywhere so yeah that basically sucks! but hey, thats what group dates are for!
so i am signing off for now but i will keep you posted on all that is happening! later!