The sins that I am most guilty of.
I lust after people and money and thing and I envy everyone because I am a no one.
Lust
I have always had a desire to be the center of attention I ahev always wanted to be the pretty girl or the sexy girl but I never will be and I know that. I have a very lusty personality and a very protectve one over the people I lust for *cough squishy cough*. Along with having a dirty mind I also ama very physical person not even like kissing or anything just I ahve to be around people all the time or I freak out. but right now there's only one person that I lust after and i love taht person and wish taht iwas good enough for them to want me.
Envy
I've always wanted things that I couldn't have I've always hated myself and taht lead me to look at other people and say 'Why were they born so pretty? Why can't be pretty?" I grew to hate al those people that I thought were better than me which is everyone and taht is why I sem to have barely anyone now I grew to envious and lashed out at them causing them to abandon me. I understand why they did it. I know that the people that I'm close to know about how envious I can get I try to control everything andif I even hear of another girl talkign to me boyfriend I ma ready to kill her I don't think I can change anytime soon but I don't want to lose him so i pretend to be ok with it as it eats me up inside.
I fear that these sins will be my down fall in lie. But I don't know we'll have to see....
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