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I am depressed. I hate being depressed it ruins one's day. I grade myself low on a paper for English I stupidly told grade ma. The PC didn't save my paper correctly and each time I graded myself anything higher than a 75 I ended up with a D Paper.

My grandma got mad and so did my aunt. Mom sad I wonder why... Geeezz maybe it's because I wasn't encouraged nor did I have outside help. From the time I started it to the time I posted the paper on gaia I was uneasy. I knew It need fixing but I didn't get Help I got Critizied.

I work had in a drepression when a classmate scored it a 61% I had to cut choir in order to come home and cry. I mean it not like I wanted an A/B paper it's just writting essays isn't the easiest thing.

For kindergarden to third grade I wasn't really taught to read. I knew how to multipy. from late 1st grade to 12 I was told to write report not essays. Instead of having spelling assignment We had Team board races and well... What they say is true. "If you lable that person one thing eventually they'll become it."

I was labled a crappy writter and speller. Thus now I can't write a decent paper without being discourage, stressed, and ready to call it quits when I get 600 words.

It hurts now to finally have the encouragement I was suppose to have in primary and secondary school. I mean my college english teacher saw me in the hall and told me "your writting got better. It didn't matter what I though I has to be me who thinks it better." Said to say but my writting is crappy.