It's even more frustrating to watch that "star" of a person finally reach out for them but then turn around and rip their heart out, emotionally play with and abuse them.
It's so frustrating to watch while the one person is in love with the "star" but the star just wants to hurt them.
Being forced to watch this day in and day out is begining to wear on me...I don't know what side to take anymore
I'm posting one of my older lyrics that I wrote because it fits how I feel right now, not the "situation" but how I feel:
Reflections
Everyday I walk the streets and I wander if I have the will to survive, I see them people in their groups and clubs and here I am All alone. So I keep on walking down that same old path of shame and pain, pain and shame and
Here I am reflecting on who I am, why I’m here. Why did God place me on the wretched earth, so unsure? Was it to be hurt and abused by their hearts of steel; or was it for a greater cause still unknown to the human heart? Let me know God, let me know!
I wonder when my time to shine will be or when my life will turn around. Them people in their groups and clubs will never know or see what I now truly know and see for they’re so caught up in their world of mortal things. I keep on walking down that same old path of pain and shame, shame and pain so.
Here I am reflecting on who I am, why I’m here. Why did God place me on the wretched earth, so unsure? Was it to be hurt and abused by their hearts of steel; or was it for a greater cause still unknown to my human heart? Let me know God, let me know!
What about the day that I fall? Them people in their groups and clubs won’t notice. I’ll keep falling and falling and falling until I hit the bottom only then will them people notice that I’m gone. Not that they’d care, but If they were to fall I’d notice I would reach out for them. They’d just slap my hand and call me a pest so I keep on walking down that same old path of shame and pain, pain and shame and
Here I am reflecting on who I am, why I’m here. Why did God place me on the wretched earth, so unsure? Was it to be hurt and abused by their hearts of steel; or was it for a greater cause still unknown to the human heart? Let me know God, let me know!
Through all my thinking there’s one thing left to say and that’s that every person in this whole wide world has a group or club except for me I’m the one exception. In a room a million people everywhere yet here I am still alone, disconnected from them all. So I keep on walking down that same old path of pain and shame, shame and pain so,
Here I am reflecting on who I am, why I’m here. Why did God place me on the wretched earth, so unsure? Was it to be hurt and abused by their hearts of steel; or was it for a greater cause still unknown to My oh so human heart? Let me know God, let me know!
Let me know God, let me know, my reflection
I'm sitting here reflecting on everything that's going on and I'm so confused and hurt at the same time, I don't even really know why I don't even know why I'm posting this but I am so deal with it damn it
I'm so sick of being confused and having my emotions ******** with >.< I wish I could block everyone out but I can't
