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Tiger doesn't like many guys right now.
Ok, just ramling, bacause I can, about someone who IM'd me last night. I just... I really want to know why. I really want to know if maybe, somewhere in all the depression and self loathing and pushing me away, if maybe you ever thought there was something. If you believed it yourself. I know I did, but then I was pushed away, repeatedly, no matter how I tried to stick with it, something was always wrong. And of course, there was the fact that someone got into a relationship, but I just sat and watched, happy that you had someone that could make you happier than I could. Or so I thought. It ended, as most things do, and again, I had a faint glimmer of hope, which was again darkened by the repeated silences I was greeted with.
Of course, I finally gave up. I met Jarrett, and he was here and actually cared, instead of being cold towards me and then later saying "I love you." But the ******** questions still remain. How do you really feel about me? Was there ever anything there? Did we ever actually have a chance? *sighs* These questions haunt me and probably will until the day I did.
They say only the truest love grows into the deepest hate. I'm not sure how much I agree, but it's highly plausible.
And I should be happy with Jarrett, I know I should, but I almost feel like love is ruined for me. It's like I know that I love him, and I know that he loves me, but the little voice in the back of my head just wonders how long it'll last. Just wonders when things will fall apart again.
This is the first time I've put those words down. I ******** hate doubting it, but it keeps happening. I hate it.
But yeah, why I don't like guys.
Icey's boyfriend is an a** who wants to dump her. He should go jump off a bridge.
That is all.
Ima go be emo now xP jk... or am I? ninja
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