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I wrote all of this in my time of heartache and loneliness.

Fantasy Forever

To: Dante, You have such a great appreciation of literature, So here is one of my best dedicated to only you.

She walked out onto the placid waters

not making a ripple in time

Her silken silhuette figure

luminated by the moon's light.

An angel perhaps,

But a vision she was indeed.

Skin so white,

It had the hue of ivory.

Her hair a silky liquid,

It's current caused by the wind.

Eye's so blue,

It had to be a sin

How could such a being exist?

was she for real?

A real live goddess,

Full of magesty and sex appeal...

The water arose

hiding the enchanting being

from the all knowing,

and the all seeing.

Not angels, sages, nor spirit guides

Could fathom the secret

this beauty did hide.

Time passed on

And the water fell still

No one can know what happened

But unseen eyes will

This story told only to the deaf

seen only by the blind

this story lives forever

living on with time.

Metaphor
I'll scream your name,

you don't care

I could die right now,

but you won't be there.

I could hate you forever

But forever isn't long enough.

I want to erase you

You stole my love.

Vanish, Angel

I hate you

Vanish Angel

You don't know truth

I've cried

You lied

I've died

You walked away

I hope you vanish today.

I hope your heart bleeds,

your eyes don't see

You killed me

Everything I say,

take it metaphorically

Take it how you want

I'll take this to my grave

My heart

Your words will haunt

I don't understand

what did I do?

Was I really so horrible to you?

Is this what I deserve?

Forget you

You got on my last nerve

this is me

Thr new grown up

heart broken Tenshi.

And I had enough.

Heart of Tenshi



(To my friend Dante, thank you for being there for me.)

Late night dreaming

Leads to

Painful screamin

I heard you

I felt you

But I was wrong

A heart that's

broken

A love that's

stolen

You did this

Oh, I can't stand it

Wrists are

bleeding

Life is seeping

from my being

I'm not okay

get lost

please stay away

But one day

I'll say

I'm alright

Because I had

Dante

A friend

who's so great

One that

you'd hate

You know, John

You lost

This heart's gone

I am done

I thought you

were the one.

So much for

Happy ever after

stronger

that's her

a girl you broke

I'll never

let you back in

You were

My biggest sin

Good-bye to you

on with

a life brand new.

~{Life}~
Death becomes our path of ways.

Ways of living through our days.

To everyone we express hate.

Everything is a gloomy grey.

Joy melted, like ice in the sun.

You despise everything and everyone.

There isn't anyone you can trust.

A bad play from hell is love and lust.

The sweet smell of carnal flesh.

During the sinful act of sex.

Nothing can be

Perfect or happy.

Just frown,

and wear it like a symbolic crown.

No one cares what you do.

Because unlike you,

they don't know the truth.

Life is a pile of s**t.

All we can do;

is smile and shovel through it.

"I'll be okay"
Passion's all gone.

A heart half from one.

My tears so clear.

A love not here.

The butterfly falls,

the rain pours on.

A near naked woman

with less than a shawl.

Rivers of pain

held back; restrained.

His love so close,

But I am stuck under the ropes.

They bind my soul,

help me today.

I promise

I'll love you always.

Help me forget.

That we were ever passionate.

Help me to say.

"I'll be okay."

~Eturnity~
Sleep sweet my angel,

Our forever came to end.

Let go of my heart.

It's over and time to part.

Let go of my soul,

and your wings let unfold.

Take flight and go on.

Then sing your loving song.

A song of passion and delight,

A serenade in the moonlight.

Broken to pieces,

Elf is lost; she is.

how will she stay together?

When shortly lived,was her forever

Here in this forrest she'll stay.

Till she feels free one day.

who'd have thought it wasn't meant to be?

But my love shall last Eturnally.


Here we are

weeks after forever

and still I can't

stop loving you...

Not ever

Hearts are broken

Our hearts are lost.

In a world so bittersweet,

and covered in frost.

Tears stain our cheeks,

As we wallow in saddness

through out these past weeks.

Time heals all?

Whoever said that...

they never had to fall.

they didn't have their hearst broke,

The didn't cry those tears,

you know, the ones that choke.

I'll give up my bad ways,

If I knew it would make you stay.

I'd never let you go.

Out of all this,

I think we will grow.

Grow together,

and not apart.

Then sow together,

both our broken hearts.

And forever love

is what we'll find,

Then all of this?

It will be left behind.

Though not forgot,

and always remembered.

It will keep us together.

You were my first

I want you to be the last.

Yes, we've had it rough,

but really wasn't it a blast?

The cute little names,

and the sweet kissy games.

the late night talks

Remember our freezing christmas walk?

It was a magical night.

"All that matters is here with me."

Those were your words.

I'll remember them,

Eturnally.

Elf and Angel

You remember I know you do.

And we are going to see this through.

How can we just walk away.

when we were our,

night and our day?

What about the plans we had?

the future mom

and the future dad.

Angel, I knew I loved you

when you said "hi"

Please don't do this.

Please don't say "Good-bye"

"Hun you complete me"

We both know.

Elf and Angel are meant to be.

Forever and for always

You and me.

~Time~

Time to live

Time to love

Time to cry

Time to smile

Time to grow

Time to go

Time to get back home.

One way

This is today

A new day

Life's only one way

A strait away.

Heads up, on a curve.

Don't panic and don't swerve.

Keep calm

stay strong.

Look up

and look out.

Hold on,

Just shout!

Life hard enough.

Don't add to the pain.

Just go on.

Stay on the one way.

(A Broken Heart)

A broken Heart

Cannot sing

Cannot smile

Cannot laugh.

A broken Heart

Cannot heal

with the seal of time.

A broken soul,

Cannot Soar,

Cannot dance

Cannot run

or jump for joy.

A torn girl

Cannot try

Cannot hear

Cannot speak

without

Breaking down.

A broken heart

Is not a song

Has no smile,

Is a deaf laugh.

A broken Heart

Is craddled

In my lap.

Hold Let Go

You don't hear me

You don't know I'm there

Please listen to my words

You don't know how it hurts.

Can I close my eyes

Will this fall end?

I wanna hold on

How do I keep what's gone?

Am I a shadow in your mind?

Or am I a forgotten time.

This hurts so bad.

I'll never hold what I'll never have.

Look in my hand

It's all my dreams

Ripped at their seams.

A once forever plan.

What you wanted me to be

was everything but me

And all those lies.

I know see.

Before I begin

I'm over.

Broken, you know.

I've let go.

`Angel`

Angel, sweet, Angel

I see your ways

I feel your wings

I kissed your face.

Angel, My Angel

You flew me high.

I saw the world

Through your eyes.

The wind was strong,

but you held me tight.

You gave me hope.

You showed me life.

Angel, Loving Angel

You have my heart

I gave my soul

Love was a painted art.

Kiss me, Angel

Hold me Close

Never leave

Don't let go.

It's so high up

On our cloud

Don't drop me

Don't let me down

I trust you

I love you

I need you

Please let me keep you

Angel, Oh Angel

Where'd you go?

Why'd you leave?

I just have to know

My cloud is gone

I'm falling fast

This isn't how

Forever lasts.

Angel, My living Angel

Why'd you fly?

I'm not alright

I've died inside

You droped me

You threw me

I hit hard

I feel so dirty

Why?

How could you?

This is wrong

I know you knew

Angel, lost Angel

I bought your lies

And here I am

As this heart Cries

Angel, My love

Why can't you see

You hold my soul

As it greatly bleeds

Angel

I feel so used

But why can't I...

Stop loveing you?


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© Tenshi