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This is a me
bored
Let Me Go

I love you dear,
But can not tell,
So I hide the pain,
You do not know,
This pain so great,
Yes so never said,
I hold you close,
To hide the tears,
I cry this blood,
And cut so deep,
To slow,
My beating heart,
And wish,
To one day stop it,
So it won’t brake,
Into anymore peaces,
It’s so hard now,
To pick up the peaces,
Every time,
I hear your voice,
I see you,
Or even think of you,
Every time the peaces get smaller,
Harder to find,
Easier to lose,
Maybe I should turn cold,
So it won’t happen anymore,
So my heart won’t brake anymore,
Or feel anymore,
That’s sounds so nice,
To not feel,
I wonder if I could,
I bet not,
But,
Well,
I guess I could,
I might just be able to,
To be cold,
So cold,
To not care,
To cry not knowing,
Its blood,
Not seeing I hurt you,
Not seeing the truth,
That I bleed to much,
Covering not just myself,
But also you,
With my blood of pain,
Passing the pain to you,
Not seeing you hurt,
Your heart braking,
You try to turn to another,
But can’t get over me,
When I do see,
I cry again,
Knowing I hurt you bad,
I try to correct it,
Only to have,
You hurt me,
By saying,
You’re moving on,
Or at least trying,
You blame me,
For not being able to,
You want to move on,
But still say,
You love me,
You wonder why I sound so hurt,
When you say it,
But never ask why,
You try to push me away,
And when I give,
To go,
You pull me back,
To say sorry,
Only to do it again,
I wonder why,
I put myself through all this,
Then I remember,
I let it happen,
Because I love you,
I let you hurt me,
Again and again,
Because I love you,
I let you hurt me,
So much,
Because I would do,
Anything for you,
Cry for you,
Bleed for you,
Hurt for you,
Anything,
But,
Love for you,
I will only ever love,
Just you,
No one else,
That is the one thing,
I won’t do for you,
Or anyone else,
I can’t,
My heart belongs to you,
You hold it in your hands,
You may not know it,
Or want it,
But you do,
You hold my only heart,
In your hands,
I don’t know what I’d do,
Of you lost it,
Or crushed it,
I don’t want to loss you,
But I think I already have,
I messed up bad,
But what can I do,
It’s not like I can change it,
If I could I would have,
A million times over,
By now,
But I can’t,
I have accepted it,
And I’m trying to move on,
It’s hard but,
I’m trying,
I still cry at night,
Knowing how much I hurt you,
Wanting to die,
So you could forget me,
But that would hurt you worse,
So I cry,
Late at night,
I cry myself to sleep,
Hoping in the morning,
You’ll call and take me back,
Only to wake up,
And know you won’t
I try so hard,
On those mornings,
Not to cry again,
Most times I don’t,
But when I do,
All the peaces of my heart,
Shatter again,
Going every where,
I don’t even bother,
To look for them,
Anymore,
No point,
If it will just happen again,
So when I was at that dance,
For once all of my heart with me again,
When it shattered again,
I cried,
I left the peaces,
Where they lie,
In that moment,
That moment I heard that song,
I lost myself,
Completely lost myself,
Knowing I had already lost you,
I gave up,
It was over,
Why try,
You won’t,
You don’t care,
You never did,
And never will,
You say you love me,
But don’t,
I say I love you,
And with everything I have,
I do,
I truly do love you,
And that’s why,
I’ll let you go,
You don’t have to worry,
About me anymore,
I won’t be here to bother you,
Ever again,
I’ll be lost,
Lost in death wishing you well,
Hoping you found someone else,
Someone else to love,
Someone better,
To love,
Someone who won’t falter,
Someone who won’t hurt you,
Someone in all ways,
Better then me,
For I’m not worth your time,
I waste the time I live,
So I’ll leave,
Let you live your life,
So you don’t have to bother,
With a stupid child,
So not I say goodbye,
To you,
And hope you’ll say it back,
And let me go,
If you don’t I can’t stay,
Not with this pain,
I tried it out,
Tried to stick it out,
But it got to be,
To much,
I can’t take it,
My time has come,
Let me go,
I shall let it all drain away,
As I let you go,
My blood that fell on you,
Now washes away with my tears,
I let you go,
Though I still love you,
So please,
Let me go now.
~DL~





 
 
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