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some of you guys have heard me talk about a girl that hurt me really bad, and i figured you might want to know the whole story.

her name was sara, i meet her freshman year. she was cool, but in one word she was twisted. for some reason i took a liking to her. we became friends, she told me about her childhood i told her about mine, we told each other everything. one day during gym she happened to fall down, while helping her up i noticed a dark red stain on her sock, it was very noticable, when i asked her about it she said as plain as day that she cuts herself. for some reason i felt as if she needed me, as i was a someone who would be there for her, no matter what. I was, i was by her side through tthe hard times and the good, boyfriends, breakups, new love, even when she thought she was pregnant. but all the time she kept cutting herself, each one deeper than the last. i wa worried, but i didn't want to rat her out. so i did the first and best thing that came into my mind i told her that every time she cut i would. and to my shame i did. we both eventually stoped this self destructive habbit, and as time went by i can to "love" her. but she did not feel the same, she would call me names, and in gerenral make me feel like like s**t, but i was devoted to her, eventualy we were able to work things out, and we dated, (for about a week) she broke up with me by saying "when i kiss you i feel like i'm kissing my brother." what a load of ----. now that i think about it i realize that she never really did care at all. i was just some guy she used to spend time with. soon after i found out that the entire time that i was dating her my best friend gabe, was ------- around with her. ( let me tell you thats one ---- of a friend ) but i forgave all that and agread to both of their friends. but one day after school, sara's dad comes into the school and takes her out, i don't think much of it till the next day i get a phone call from the police telling me she has ran away, and that they think she might be suicidal. i freak out, cuase she's my friend and i worry, but two days later she was found having --- with her boyfriend in a barn. so because of her i was really sour, and sorta flammed the help thread.

im not quite sure why i even told you all this but her you go.