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well its been a lil over a dammned year since ive moved to were I currently live.
Aside from going through two girlfriends
(one whos insain plus a chronic lier,the other with an hypocritical ethical & thick headed mind)
three if I count that short lived online one xd

the results are still the ******** same. I'm miserable.....and just as badly off as I was when I lived in the other town thats only an two hour drive from were I live.theres an recent comment I heard I wouldnt of minded doing myself
just sleeping for a hundred years.
I guess thats why I wrote that story a few months back.Anyways, it's funny how the hypocritical one claims she has nothing left for her around here anymore and is thinking about running away.

I'd say nothings changed too much for me,just the oncomming personal hell I've seen comming since I went through it twice allready. When that happens the 3rd time I dont think I'll be able to handle it as well as I was able to the 1st two times.

As a result to recent stressfull and anguishing things happening within' this summer alone I've decided to be openly violent to who overpisses me off at school.In addition, I remember discussing with a few others how its gonna be fun to teach the new grade 8's some respect ,now that we're on top of the periodical food chain in school.

I have a feeling that this is gonna be one of my most violent years since...
early grade school before I met that lady who taught me to controll my temperment..

as far as friends goes I don't really have many anymore..and I know it's gonna get smaller
within the next year or two....allready most of mine In my old town are preplanning to leave town..and a rather noticable majority of them have allready graded this year.I was lucky enough though to see one of my old close friends before she moved in result she gave me a necklace.

if I was to total the current number of friends I've lost within the constant
moving I've done it's between 80-90 and after the next 2-3 years its gonna go up to a lil over 100 and thats just so far....

all I have to say is I praise

all forms of "hate" music that helped me cope through this far......
but I dont think it'll be much help the next time around when my personal hell
fully hits agian....in the meantime all I can do is try and ready myself for it....