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The whole reason I made this journal- aside from getting gold- was because I knew nobody'd read it.

And because nobody reads it, I figured the guy who I pissed off before- the reason I moved my rants to here- wouldn't read it.

Well, we made up. I sucked it up and apologized, but I'm still here.

Why? Because life sucks.

Life sucks, life sucks life Suuuuuuuuuuucks!

My day started out pretty okay.
Woke up around eleven, thinking it was one pm. Ate some okay breakfast-oatmeal-. Went upstairs and typed away at the computer.

You know, for that three hour panel thing.

WELL!
I'm mostly converting now. No. Scratch that. All I am doing is converting s**t to mpeg1 now, and I kept getting errors. Stream error this. Stream error that. blah bitty blah.

So I decided to dump everything in WMM and do it the unconventional way.
Well, instead of making a new file for each video, I decide to chuck them all together and make one big file for everything.

It takes like 2 hours to export, and then when I play it, it's all out of synch! Two hours wasted!

So now I'm trying to do each file one by one. Converting to huffyuv, then taking them all into tempeg and encoding again.

Horrible HORRIBLE loss of quality, but apparently there's no way else to get around the dumb errors.

So, while I'm doing this, it's basically sitting and waiting.

So I IM person #1-the guy who I pissed off before- who is now in a deep relationship with Person #2- personal friend of mine.

Well, I am positive 1 is talking to 2, and he is. I say if that's the only thing he's doing, if he'll rp with me. A few minutes later 1 says it's not the only thign he's doing, and he simply can't rp right now. Okay. Viable excuse.

I leave him alone.

Person 2. I ask him if we can rp. He said "I can't."
I say, "Roommate?" - his roommate likes to watch his monitor and it makes 2 nervous.
He says no.
I say, "it's because of [1], isn't it."
He says "Yeah."
"What? Did he tell you not to do it or something?"
"No."

A few minutes pass. Then I figure it out.
"You think it's cheating."
"Yeah"

Well, before, when 2 had a nother boyfriend, and was living with him- let's call him 3-, we rped all the time. And this rp involves sex in it.
No, it wasn't on Gaia, you bastards. Not even over PM. -rolls eyes-

Anyway.

He says, "Before, I was living with [3], now, since this is long distance, it just feels like cheating."

Great. Just ******** great.

2 and I have this great rp thing going. It's been going on forever. Sometimes, I swear I only get up to rp with 2. He's great.
And I'm not saying the sex is great. The sex actually sucks, but that's because of my character. But seriously.
He rps awesomely. And I just love rping with him.

So I offer to rp with him where we just don't have sex. He says "How are we going to get around that?"
I say
"I don't know.
All they keep doing is talk about it. Ziko probably wouldn't do it again because he's so infatuated with how much he sucks at it."

2 still says it feels like cheating.

You know, normally, I'd respect his feelings but, we did this before when he was living with his other boyfriend. This sucks. All I wanted to do to make my day a little better was rp with someone. A nice, shounen-ai/yaoi rp.

But no. Now I can't do it today, even though I'm leaving town tomorrow, and I can't do it ever again as long as 2 and 1 are together.

I hate this. At first, it was just jealousy. But now. Now it's just insane.