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I'm Thinking....



Why do I feel this way? I don't understand anything and that drives me crazy! Why am I thinking these stupid things when I don't know why I'm saying them. "I want to go home!" Leave me alone! I'm so confused and mixed up. I want... but I know things have to get better! They have to! I can't stay in this hell forever can I? I'm trying to get out. I afriad I'm never going to get better, that I'll always have this need to rip out my vains and just let myself bleed. I don't want to think about this anymore! I wish everything was clear and I wasn't so confused. I want to understand! I wish this had never never happened. But it can't be changed now. Someone messed up and ruined mine and God knows how many more peoples lives. No! I don't want to think it's his fault! It wasn't. I wish I would just stop. I wasn't like this before.