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It's the silent struggles that can really kill you... The, "Oh, I'm fine" or "I'm good". The "I don't feel well today but I'm not going to mention why". I just can't get myself to tell anyone that I'm about 85-90% sure I have Lyme. I feel like people would worry or think I was just making it up. I'm self diagnosed but I've self diagnosed a lot of things that I, later, got diagnosed with by a Dr. I've only told my mom and mentioned it to my brother. I just want to tell someone how awful I feel. To be like, "this is why it's so hard for me to do stuff". I heart screams, "if only you knew what I did while I believe I have this". I'm strong but I look weak. I'm persistent but I look like I don't really care. I just don't have it. I want to tell everyone that I feel so sick again. I got a cold last month and I've been knocked on my butt ever since. I'm not sick but I feel sick, like my body is really fighting something. Does anyone really know that? No. They see the normal 'fibromyalgia' girl. Lyme disease is what made Avril Lavigne bed ridden at the peak of her career. I feel bed ridden but I don't allow myself to stay in bed. I've been getting heart symptoms off and on and today I started getting pretty dizzy. I didn't want to worry my mom, so I acted like it wasn't all the bad. I was chopping up food and I almost fell backwards. I, then, helped my mom's dog down the stairs because my mom was in a lot of pain today. When I went to stand up straight after leaning over, I felt the room spin. I feel like my body was going in circles as I stood up. Things like that have been happening today. I'm wondering if it's Lyme related. I'm trying things I was trying before to help naturally treat the Lyme, to no avail. It helped the heart symptoms go away before. Idk. I just feel like I'm getting more and more sick. I don't understand. I know during could months the Lyme can get worse because it thrives in cold weather but I've been trying to stay warm.Idk what's going on.

I also have been having major problems with my stomach not emptying very quickly. I get so full and nauseous after eating a normal meal. And 24 hours later I was still really full from 1 meal. I kept getting a lot of sour stomachs. It makes me nervous because I know possibilities of what it could be but I'm trying to rule out minor gastroparesis. It could be a number of things, so I'm not sure yet. The natural treatment for it has helped though, so Idk. Could be coincidental.