I mess up no matter what. I give up. Yell at me, hate me. Do what you want. I'll just lie here and bleed because if I try to get up it'll make the wounds worse. Sometimes it's not my fault. But you don't stop to listen. Sometimes it is, but you don't see my apology. I can't take it. Make it stop. I'm sorry I met you! I'm sorry you find such pain in me! But sorry isn't enough. Not for you. You never accept it. You nod, you smile, but I can feel the emotions festering under the surface. You don't forgive me. You still hate me. So I give up. You win, I'm the terrible monster. Blame it on me, all of it. I'll take and let you live without the burden, without me. Because that's all I am. Pain and hurt. Neither of which I wish on you.
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