Once again all my entries failed miserably at the Runway, losing themselves in the limbo. And also once again that one little voice whispers to me: "Why don't you give up already ? This Runway s**t is a waste of time! They'll just keep thrashing your avatars again and again until you snap!"
I should be feeling myself like s**t or hopeless by now but strangely... I don't. You know why ? Because these "epic failures" don't define me at all. I'm not "worthless" or "trash" just because mostly of my avi attempts apparently "suck a**" and "aren't never good enough" to be exposed to the public, you know.
Loses are temporary, as well as victories. Instead of finding self-worth, self-approval and self-validation on others or contests this "quest" for validation needs to start inside myself.
If people find my avatars "a pile of low budget s**t", fair enough. That's their problem, not mine. Can't please everybody. Instead of pitting myself, how about learning from the failures and mistakes I make ?
So, STFU, inner negative voices: I'll. Be. Fine.
And so, the Journey of Life continues its course...