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I never really thought about this topic until i had a brief conversation with my uncle during work. Sadly i don't think i can remember what the topic was all about but what he told me still lingers on. It was about knowing your worth. Before this even happened, as a kid i had this feeling that something was bothering me in regards to my motivation and my view on things i see currently, however, i should say i was young. I guess i was about 15 or 16 at the time it really came to play. So every now and again i hear those words and even now, i still wonder if i am.

Honestly, i'm not much of a motivated person when it comes to long term goals... hell even short terms are iffy. Though if i want something really quick i do my best to get it but when it gets too hard i usually give up quickly. I'm aware that my laziness plays an important part in that but i'm also aware that the work i put onto a failed task is really pointless even when somewhere deep down you know it won't work. I still do this today.

I know it was how i was raised also. Having only a single mother raising me was tough mainly for her.. You would think that it would be incentive to get my a** out and get it together but nothing really happened. For that I also loath myself. I don't know but maybe it's my view point that's taking away from it all. But it helped me get though a lot of things in my life. Pessimism kept me safe mostly without it i'd be subject to fail again and again and just rot in it.

~Thinking Be Right Back~