This isn't aimed toward views but if it's stumbled upon, who cares. I just feel like clearing my head. I haven't been on here in a long time, but I do remember always venting on here cleared my mind up even though I always deleted my entries.
My life is full of ups and downs. I don't understand what I'm doing or what is even going on half the time. I just get through it. I've had some great memories with a lot of wonderful people. I don't really regret much of what I have done, seeing as I always try to do what benefits the whole instead of just me.
I finally after years of flirting around and endless relationship failures, I have succeeded in the only thing I really ever hoped for..To fall in love. I met a wonderful guy, who ironically was there all along, even though we didn't talk...and one message lead to another and well here we are almost two years later and living together with our reptile babies. We by far are not perfect, but we try. Whoever said this s**t was easy is full of horse s**t. But at the end of the day, it feels so good to look at him and know he's mine.
Lately, my mind hasn't been in the right place. It's been sad and focused on the bad things that happened. Every day I try to put the past where it belongs, but something or someone is always there to remind me. I don't have a bad life at all. I just wish people would let me be happy..let me be a happy little fool.
I live for the days I get to just relax at home with him. I honestly don't care what we do because I enjoy his company that much, even when he's being a complete shithead..I still want to be with him and cuddle and do what we do best.
I've realized when I stay away from most people, I don't have to remember. The topic comes up so easily..whether it's in general or about them..it reminds me. But at home, I'm safe from this..
I honestly have the most fun when I'm with him and we just bullshit the day away. I don't even care anymore if I get to go on cute dates or get cute gifts or cute text messages because now that I'm in a real relationship I realized that it's not like that. It's about you and that person. Not what you do or get. It's about how you respect, treat, and love each other.
 Ink Heart Marionette · Thu Oct 29, 2015 @ 09:12am · 0 Comments |
