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My Decision

1/17/14 , 6:52 p.m.

I had finally made the decision for this. For Azalia and me.

If she really wants to be with me, then she has to end it with Lynn; and tell her the truth. I can't do this knowing that Lynn still thinks that they're in a relationship. That's like being in a relationship with the both of us at the same time.

If she can't do it; then it only prooves how she want to be with her more. But I want her to know that I will not go to another, or anyone I've been with. Not even that a*****e who screwed me over. I'm not a cheating type. I don't two-time. I don't pretend I'm in a relatinship with another, just to keep my real relationship a secret. ... That's just not fair for Lynn and me.

No more secrets, no more lies.

I came out to more family members yesterday. They're okay with it. Even my elder sister Mary talked to me about supporting it.

Anyway, I don't want to hear "I'm going to do it soon , but I'm afraid". I need you to do it at the very second. s**t, I'll give a week. But if you can't do it, then leave me to go to her. To me; life isn't about being in an relationship. There's so much more to it; so I would stay single for while if she chooses her.

I'm a damn man who doesn't want to play these games anymore. I can't believe I hadn't thought of this sooner.

I promise; if she leaves me for her, I will not cry. There will be no emotion to show, or a tear to shed. I'll take in a deep breath and walk the other way silently.