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So today I finished my first day of high school. So far, it's a lot like what I expected it to be. I have three siblings who have already gone through high school, so the system here didn't surprise me in the slightest.

I want to go back a bit, to two entries ago. I wrote an entry a few months ago, when I wasn't even close to being a high schooler. In that entry, I mentioned that I would talk about my idea of the perfect date. I feel like that's a fun topic. blaugh

For those of you know claim to know me in reality, you probably figured I'm not too keen on romance. I don't want to admit, but I am a human, and I do develop those feelings. It's inevitable, even for a cold person like myself.

When I was small, I didn't really like guys. I liked one guy from grade two all the way to grade eight or nine. His name was Calvin. Maybe I still like him, but I'm not sure anymore. Anyway, during the time I liked him, he was just a figment of my memory. I never made contact with him. He might be dead for all I know.

But because of the lack of communication and interaction, I never wanted a lovey-dovey, touchy-touchy relationship. Not with anyone. Not yet, at least.

When asked about what I would want a date to be like, well.. I don't have a solid answer. I'll think about it as I write this entry.

If I was to have a date right now with no restrictions, I would watch anime with my mate. This is assuming we can go to each other's houses.

I would also like a piggy-back ride. Preferably a long one.

In grade nine, my class was privileged to go on to a retreat. The purpose of a retreat is to get closer to your classmates. We did tons of activities, one which forced us to piggy-back each other.

Now, I am strong, but only on my own. I can't carry others in a stable fashion so I didn't that day. Plus, given my petite figure, people wanted to carry me. So be it. Carry me!

It was the first time I was piggy-backed since my brain developed. I must say, it felt nice. Too nice. I loved it. I love getting piggy-back rides. I don't know why. They're... fun.

So far, my ideal date consists of piggy-back rides and anime.

I've explained why I would like a piggy-back ride. I don't think I need to explain why I'd want to watch anime, do I?

Basically, anime is a passion of mine, so I'll enjoy it regardless of the circumstances. The pros of watching anime on a date is, to me, equivalent to watching a movie. Why? Because you don't have to talk or risk saying anything stupid. That's my main reason.

A classmate of mine also mentioned cuddling. I don't quite know what that is, in the sense that I can't picture myself doing it, but I would like to try. I mean, you can cuddle and watch anime, right? It sounds doable.

So now, piggy-back rides, anime, and cuddling is my current date. Let's add more!

I would want to eat instant food. I don't want to go to a fancy restaurant because I get scared of the staff. I can't handle that stuff. First of all, I'm socially awkward. Talking to the waiter/waitress is near to impossible for me. Second, I lost the ability to make decisions. Even if I was hungry, I couldn't decide what to eat from a menu I've never seen before.

For food, I would like ramen, udon, soup, whatever can warm up insides and is easy to eat... AND, it has to be attainable from home. I don't mind any homemade meals. I don't mind eating food that has been ordered and delivered to home. I just don't want to go to an actual place where they serve you food on a menu.

Piggy-back rides, anime, cuddling, home dining... What else, you might ask?

Swings! NOT TIRE SWINGS. Baby swings and adult swings are nice. I like being in the baby swing, but I don't mind adult swings. I like the feeling of rising up and going backwards. It's soothing.

But I'm scared of tire swings. The first time I went on a tire swing (a few days ago), my friend swung me around in a circle. There was no forward-backward motion. It just kept racing forward. There are no breaks from the adrenaline. In a normal swing, it switches back and forth between adrenaline and euphoria, so... yeah. Take me to a normal swing.

And what would make it even better is if you went on the swing beside me. I don't like being pushed when I'm on a swing. I can build up enough momentum to manage on my own. The best part is seeing who can swing higher. whee

You know what else would be nice on a date? Learning something from your partner. Because I don't have a companion at the moment, I don't know what I can learn. But to my future, possibly non-existent boyfriend, teach me something! I'd like to learn how to ride a bike, if you have the patience for that. Maybe help me with skateboarding. If you could teach me how to properly throw frisbees, footballs, or any other projectile I have trouble with, I'd appreciate it. emotion_c8

In addition to what has been mentioned so far, I think a proper date should have lots of talking. Now, I haven't found Mr. Perfect/ Close Enough yet, but when I do, he'll probably be pretty quiet. I'm not one to like overly loud boys, no offense intended.

I'd like to talk to my date, even if it's just a little bit. "So.. Today's been pretty awesome." "Hm." That'd be enough for me. cool

Piggy-back rides, anime, cuddling, home dining, swings, personal lessons, satisfactory conversations, aaaaand... maybe sleeping together.

Now, I don't mean sleeping together in a sexual sense. I meant sharing the night in the same bed, being within close vicinity of each other as our dreams collide. I want to sleep beside the person I love and be able to wake up knowing they'll still be there beside me. Does that count as part of a date?

I don't think I'm mature enough to handle kisses, but maybe a goodbye hug would be nice once the date is over.

"Well, I have to go now."
"Oh, yeah, that's fine. We spent a lot of time together so I'm really happy."
"Alrighty. So... bye, I guess."
"Wait, can I have a hug? Just one, before you leave."

Something like that. Is that too unrealistic? But don't you agree it's nice? Or maybe I just have a warped way of taking pleasure.

And that about sums it up. At the moment, I can't think of what else to add to my ideal date. Maybe I'll leave that up to my partner.

For now, though, I have to finish up some summer projects. Good night if it's night time when you read this~!

Today's lyrics are:
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me

Guess the song's title and artist and a reward shall be granted! Self-promotion for the win! 4laugh

Anyhow, as always, thanks for reading. I'll try to write a often, but I make no guarantees. yum_puddi