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As long as I don't close my eyes, I'm fine. As long as I walk, and sing, and laugh, do anything, I'm fine. As long as I don't breath, I don't think, as long as I push my screaming heart deep inside so I can't hear it crying out in pain, I'm just plain fine.

But when night comes, and I'm alone, the darkness of my room makes me remember. I see his bright loving eyes, looking into mine with so much emotion that it overflows inside me. I remember the rough hand placed in mine so softly, and the laugh that makes me smile even now. I see his grin. The grin that hypotized me the very frist time I saw it that day in history class, and kept putting a spell on me every moment after that.

All the things that got me threw the bad times before, now haunt me. Demons use them to slowly kill me everytime I close my eyes.