Disclaimer: The entry listed below is in regards to my rp character that I use when I roleplay in towns with some of my friends and the details listed below do not apply to the human teenager behind the computer screen. Please be aware of that and enjoy.
Saturday, April 13, 2013:
Before I used to think that by asking everyone things to clarify and by speaking up to stand up for myself, everything would be alright, but I've now seen the light of truth. People despise what I use my voice for, claim that I'm a big mouth, think that I need to shut up. Well, I might as well give them what they want: I'll be quiet, for now I think I understand what my origins are. An experiment, created by a being I've yet to meet, designed to push the boundaries of what magics can be cast. My power levels were capped at a standard level as part of the procedure. I had been awakened in this world around four years prior to this entry but my body still registers as having the form of a 17 year old. My guess is that while I age like a human now, before I gained consciousness and began to gain memories and age, I had been perhaps created in a way that would allow me to have prior knowledge as a "memory" of sorts, but my identity was absent. A blank slate if you will. A blank slate that had been driving me insane for the longest time. Had I not used magic, the only thing that would've seemed odd about me at a glance would be my legs augmented for better evasive capabilities and I could have passed as a human. My knowledge however lacked the understanding that I was an artificial being. Most likely the one or ones that created me wished for secrecy of who he, she, or they are, for they believe that magic should be accessible to all, not just myth-based beings like kitsune and angels and demons. I pray that the stars that shine across without a care for the heavens and myths can forgive my ignorance. This world I've seen wishes not for words but for battles. Not for curiosity, but for decisive ignorance actions. Kuri, arch, I hope you two are happy, for perhaps I shall try to go for a week or so without so much as a single word. Just ellipses and actions, no more than that. Out of character, of course I will speak, but in character no more for the week.
mist777
Edit: maybe I don't have to be quiet for the next week after all... Why do I get overemotional at times?
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