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I don't understand this;
Everytime I talk to a guy, and we become best friends, they always somehow get a boner when we talk, or wanna see my boobs.
Can't I just like, have a normal best friend my lord?
I chose males for best friends for the very reason that I can't really keep a stable close friendship with a female. Just so much work. I'll have close gf's, but no BFF'S. I mean, that word just curses or jinxes me. I can't. I'm so comfortable around guys. Not like, whore-ish and just like a girl comfortable, but yanno, I can talk to them more openly than I can with girls for some reason. Sure, they tease, they wouldn't understand the things us girls go through, but that's a lot better. Idk how to put this in words, I'd rather be friends with the right people yanno?
Can't help it, my nature doesn't allow myself to choose the ones I usually hang with. Cuz everything just goes with the flow, and everything just works and plans itself on its own. Recently, I've learned a new side of me though-- Flirting. I've never flirted, new thought I would. But things happen, and surprises from from it sometimes. I've broken some hearts before, but since I've found this new me of mine, I don't know if I can fully control it.
Is this like in those animes where the main character gets a new power and they have to train in order to fully understand and control it?
Feels like it, but more personality-wise.
Hm... good luck...to myself.