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Okay, so I apologize for not writing yesterday. It was a Sunday night, and I was doing homework because, well, I leave all my homework until Sunday. xp

But anyway, on the day of my previous entry, I got a private message. I was like, "Oh? This is odd."

I open the message, read through it, and realized, I have a reader! The message was from an anonymous sender. Attached to the message was a gift, which I am so grateful for, really. blaugh

See, I always wanted someone to read my journal. The journal itself wasn't something I wanted to advertise. I wanted my journal to somehow make it to someone else. I would have been okay if no one read my journal, cry , but someone DID read it, and that makes me so happy!

So to Mister-or-Misses-Anonymous-Sender-Person, thank you so much! I don't know if you'll read this journal entry, but if you do, I want you to know I really, really, really, really appreciate it! You're so awesome. :'D

If my innards had faces, they'd all be smiling write now. biggrin

Ah, I haven't felt this happy in a while. Truth is, my L.A. mark fell below where I wanted it, and the project I did on Sunday, I poured my heart and soul into it. My term L.A. depends solely on that one assignment. The stress has been motivational though, so I don't mind that it's a big project.

Still, seeing my L.A. mark like that is.. shocking. For the two previous years before this one, I was the top of my class for L.A. I feel like I'm slipping, and that thought is a bit uncomfortable.

Those dreary feelings that developed yesterday are gone! Ah, I'm so happy that someone read my journal. I can't express enough my joy. biggrin It makes me feel strangely giggly and stuff. Heh. 3nodding

So anyways, whoever sent me that not, thank you for giving me evidence that my thoughts have been shared. It means a lot to me. heart


Moving on, tomorrow I have my wrestling meet. I'm a bit excited because wrestling actually turned out to be a more entertaining sport than I had originally thought. All at once, I'm also a bit afraid of it.

I'll hopefully be facing girls my own size, but short girls are pretty strong, believe it or not.

See, growing up in age and not height made me realize, I'll have a slight disadvantage. I mean, I don't see what's so special about height. It's just.. height. |But regardless, I felt the need to do something about it. I ended up working out. Like, I figured if I can't be tall, I may as well be strong. I was thinking lately that maybe I wasn't the only one who thought like that. If my wrestling opponents tomorrow are super strong.. I'm a goner. sweatdrop

Ah, I'm so happy someone read my journal! I wouldn't even dream of it since I thought the chances were so small. Knowing someone read my journal makes me so happy, honestly.

It reminds me of a time a year or two ago. I really liked this one guy, and he really liked me. We would chat day in and day out. He was an old friend and had moved to another school on the opposite side of the city. I wasn't able to see him physically, but we exchanged so many things.

Then there was this one day, he wanted to video call. I was surprised by the sudden offer, but knowing him, I accepted. The screen showed me him, a boy who I've not seen for what seems like forever. He took out his guitar, and woosh. I felt overwhelmed by happiness.

At that time, I didn't have a working webcam, so he didn't see me. Somehow, that took off a lot of pressure.

But my point is, the happiness I feel now is most similar to that happiness I felt then.

What makes this reader special is the surprise.

When the boy I liked took out his guitar, I kind was kind of prepared. I was just expecting to see him. The guitar was just a bonus.

Today, after logging in my gaia, I saw a message. That surprise was pretty big. Then after opening the message, I was just.. so happy! I know I've said that several times in this entry already, but I really want to get that across. xp

I'm going to do homework now. It was nice.. um.. writing to you guys? 3nodding

Thanks for reading. Today especially, I want to emphasis how much I appreciate it.

Also, goodnight if it's night where you are. wink