I don't have much to write about these days.
A better way to say that would be I don't know HOW to express
what goes on these days.
The last four years I have been slowly been drifting off of the face of the earth without a care in the world.
Losing touch with everyone I knew, and not caring one bit.
I just drift to and fro.
As the years progress I feel the loneliness mounting on my shoulders
and all the faces of the people I no longer know pass through my head.
I'll continue to march forward as I always have though, because in the end,
moving forward is all you can do.
I used to feel my calling in life was to help people. To comfort them when they were down.
I can't seem to do that anymore. I feel unrelate-able to all of their problems,
even if I know I've been in the situation before.
When I hear someone cry, I feel lost. I want to lend my shoulder,
but I just don't know how anymore.
I am holding everyone at a distance. An arms length of safety for my sanity.
Someday maybe, I will find someone I can trust my last bit of sanity with, the last few pieces of my puzzle.
Perhaps I already have found that person and I just don't know it yet.
 Father Fluff · Thu Jun 28, 2012 @ 08:53am · 0 Comments |
