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I had a weird dream last night about my old crush.
It was sad.
I dreamed about seeing him again.
Looking at how he was he was doing fine.
I just stared at him for a long time.
I wanted to talk to him but I couldn't.

Then I went to my classroom at school.
and I saw my old desk. That I used to sit.
It was the only desk that was out.
Then I looked inside it.
I found old letters of my old crush.
He wrote letters to me.
Ones he never wanted me to see.

I looked at them.
Some of them were things I gave him.
And some were things he was gonna give to me.
I cried.
I was crying in my dreams.
for a while I was crying.

It read something like.

"Dear Reissa,
If you get this.
Then you know that this is goodbye.
I had so much fun with you.. being with you..
laughing with you.. even loving you.."

I don't remember the rest.
I just started to cry.

Cause I know he is over me.
Then I just looked at the letters and took them.

I went back to where I saw him.
Sitting there.
he had a flower in his hand.
They were all planting a flower.
Then he dug a little hole for the flower and put it in there.

I just watched him put the flower in.
Then I went up to the flower.
I just looked at it.
I cried a little.
I gave it some water.

and then I remember saying something.
"I'm happy that we had our time together Nathan.
I'll always have our memories we shared."

Then I poured some water onto the flower.
And left.

It was sad.
I don't know why.
It was blurry