I've been reading . .. a lot everyday in fact it doesn't matter what i prefer things that i can totally be lost in and absorbed and transported to another place my spirit goes into the book so my hurts and pains and sadnesses and loneliness and happiness and faith and hope and the softness in my heart that i try to hide are all layed bare inside the book but they are also somewhat protected that way in which we are protected from dreams in knowing that we will be unharmed physically in our dreams i wake up sometimes breathless as if i've been choked and suffocated and i gasp and realize and want to break into tears from the renewed feeling of loss i feel at knowing my other half is away from me but i swallow it maybe shedding tears maybe crying myself back to sleep sometimes i don't even know if i sleep again but merely go into rest state til morning but i will someday be reunited with my love he promised and he keeps his promises i believe that
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