Its gonna be a year since we made our Enclosure. Jan/1/10. The year really went by fast. And that you liking me went by really fast. And now your Totally over completely Over me. In just a year.
I won't deny. I do still have lingering feelings for you.
I guess is cause I always kept saying I'll get over you,
but really the more I say that. The more I thought of you.
And the more I thought about how much I missed you.
And the pain will start to come again... but I thought I wouldn't get over you.
If I kept thinking that way.
So... I just let it go. I just kept thinking about how much it was fun to hang out with you. And how much smiles and laughs we had. I'll just think about all the good memories we shared. And not the bad.
Cause I know that's probably how you saw me.
And you probably won't want to see me like this.
You were my everything! My joy and sorrow mixed in. The reason why I went to school. The reason I tried my best. The reason I cried, and the reason I loved.
I had some dreams about you lately.
So... and gradually.. I'm putting my emotions in place. So I wouldn't feel lonely anymore.
The more I dream about you. The more I miss you, but now. Its becoming clear.
Just from the beginning we... are just friends.
Though we did have our moments that were so amazing that I thought it was just a dream come true. That one kiss in the rain. And every time you came to my house. And we would just sit outside and talk and talk and talk and talk. For who knows how long.. Haha.
I know before we didn't have a very good relationship. And we practically hated each other. But in a couple years like 2 years. You finally accepted me. Even though we just became friends.
Even til now Noaki.
I'm still your friend....Even though you don't consider me as your best friend anymore. And I do not know you as much.
I'm sorry I was selfish. That I wanted you and Yusuke.
And I didn't choose you.
I do regret it, but I can't change any of that. I'm sorry. I made you go crazy. I'm sorry. I ranaway from you and the problems I had. If I stayed I probably be with you right now. Instead of you saying " Damn! I want a girlfriend so badly!"
I would have been that girlfriend. I'm sorry. I know I was a b***h an a a*****e.
Can you forgive me?
I know you said you have a lot of times now. And I'm happy. I just wish in some ways.
We could just go back to the way we use to be.
You and Me.
Thanks for always caring about me Noaki. I know someday you will find a wonderful girlfriend/wife. Who will take care and always be by your side til the end.
Even though It was suppose to be me.
Anyways
Thank you.
For giving me Joy and knowing how it felt to be in love.
Yours truly Rei.
I won't deny. I do still have lingering feelings for you.
I guess is cause I always kept saying I'll get over you,
but really the more I say that. The more I thought of you.
And the more I thought about how much I missed you.
And the pain will start to come again... but I thought I wouldn't get over you.
If I kept thinking that way.
So... I just let it go. I just kept thinking about how much it was fun to hang out with you. And how much smiles and laughs we had. I'll just think about all the good memories we shared. And not the bad.
Cause I know that's probably how you saw me.
And you probably won't want to see me like this.
You were my everything! My joy and sorrow mixed in. The reason why I went to school. The reason I tried my best. The reason I cried, and the reason I loved.
I had some dreams about you lately.
So... and gradually.. I'm putting my emotions in place. So I wouldn't feel lonely anymore.
The more I dream about you. The more I miss you, but now. Its becoming clear.
Just from the beginning we... are just friends.
Though we did have our moments that were so amazing that I thought it was just a dream come true. That one kiss in the rain. And every time you came to my house. And we would just sit outside and talk and talk and talk and talk. For who knows how long.. Haha.
I know before we didn't have a very good relationship. And we practically hated each other. But in a couple years like 2 years. You finally accepted me. Even though we just became friends.
Even til now Noaki.
I'm still your friend....Even though you don't consider me as your best friend anymore. And I do not know you as much.
I'm sorry I was selfish. That I wanted you and Yusuke.
And I didn't choose you.
I do regret it, but I can't change any of that. I'm sorry. I made you go crazy. I'm sorry. I ranaway from you and the problems I had. If I stayed I probably be with you right now. Instead of you saying " Damn! I want a girlfriend so badly!"
I would have been that girlfriend. I'm sorry. I know I was a b***h an a a*****e.
Can you forgive me?
I know you said you have a lot of times now. And I'm happy. I just wish in some ways.
We could just go back to the way we use to be.
You and Me.
Thanks for always caring about me Noaki. I know someday you will find a wonderful girlfriend/wife. Who will take care and always be by your side til the end.
Even though It was suppose to be me.
Anyways
Thank you.
For giving me Joy and knowing how it felt to be in love.
Yours truly Rei.
