"Hey did you know Cherry blossoms fall 5-centimeters per second?"......I just watched that movie...and, I feel like,...I need to apologize to someone...for something I did terribly wrong. I shouldnt have ignored you.....should I have? No, thats not it....why am I sorry....I need to apologize because....that all the time we've been together I still never had the sense to know that.....we were never supossed to be together were we? I, forced it on her....telling her that I loved her to early, hoping she would say the same thing. But even after she said it back to me...I didnt know it was hurting her that I felt that way about her. Yet, I didnt care, so I forced her even more by buying her gifts, and finnaly, thinking that she would never love me.....she did fall in love with me, but I feel out of love with her. So I ignored you didnt I? And I shouldnt have done that......I should have told you the truth, instead of just trying to hide the fact I didnt love you anymore. But now seeing that were apart and we probably wont ever see each other again, I feel jealous that some other guy will be better for you...better than I was. So, even if I get jealous, even if I hate to see other guys with you, even if the thought of suicide comes to mind when I dream of you with someone else....Its my own fault for not telling you the truth in the first place. So.....Victoria....Im sorry, for not being a better friend to you..... rather than a boyfriend. So, if, in anyway.....I ever see you again...I want to tell you.......that, Im sorry....and that......I've fallen back........in love...with...
"Hey do you know your eyes look like a cats?"Forget it...........Good-bye, Friend
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